Am I the most ungrateful person on the planet? Sometimes I think so...
So, I wanted to go back to finish my master's degree. Poof! Here I am in Tennessee, waiting for classes to start. And all I can think about is how lonely I feel without Matt here. I knew it would be hard, so I've got to power through this. I'm just feeling particularly gloomy today, and on top of that I feel guilty for feeling gloomy about something that I wanted. Sheesh!
Here's another thing I thought I would enjoy but don't: not working. Who'd have thought?! I used to think longingly about watching Regis and Kelly and all of those home improvement shows on HGTV during the day, instead of working. Now, maybe it's because I'm at my mom's house, and therefore can't really work on any projects that I might in my own home, but I have been not working for less than a week, and I am bored out of my mind! I'm speeding through books and spending countless hours on the internet in the effort to occupy my time and mind. Because, if I don't keep my brain busy with something, I'm going to continue to dwell on the fact that I really miss Matt.
Please don't feel sorry for me. I think I feel sorry enough for myself. I am, in fact, ashamed of how self-indulgent I'm being right now. I resolve to find something constructive to do, starting tomorrow, and to cease being melancholy.
Sunday, August 10, 2008
When you get what you want...
Posted by Dana at 9:18 PM
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Adjustments just generally stink, is my personal opinion. But ungrateful? You are being too hard on yourself. Of COURSE you miss your husband, who you love immensely - in spite of the fact that you are doing something you want, that is good for your future together. And you both decided that now is the best time, right?
So quit beating yourself up!!! Before you know it, you'll be done and back home with the hubby, tackling the next hurdle. Cause you're kind of a big deal, you know? :-)
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