All Things Dana

Blah

2010-07-19T17:46:00.002-05:00

I seem to have some sort of inertia right now.

I want to lose a few pounds to enable my clothes to fit more comfortably. However, working out is NOT my fave thing ever. Nor do I want to curb my eating habits.

I want to tile the remainder of the house, but I'm dreading actually DOING it.

I think I might actually be a bit depressed right now, because I don't have a job yet.

I guess I'll continue to fly in a holding pattern until something changes. Blah.

Getting Back on the Horse

2010-06-30T07:47:00.002-05:00

Holy cow! It's been an incredibly long time since I've posted anything on this site. Quite a bit has changed since then...

I'm back in Florida, having just taught my first year of school. I taught economics, personal finance, psychology, and contemporary issues at a rural public school in Tennessee. I absolutely loved my coworkers and the community in which I lived, but Matt and I couldn't get it worked out for him to join me there. Thus, I lived alone for a year, and although my marriage is as strong as ever, we didn't want to spend any more time apart.

I'm again looking for a job. Actually, I had an interview last week, and am hoping to receive news about that job any day now. Say a prayer for me, please.

Within the Week

2008-12-01T16:05:00.003-05:00

Within the week, I will be headed home to Florida! Yay! I have two big presentations this week and then I'm finished. Woo hoo! I just know this week is going to drag by, because I want it to be over quickly, ha ha.

My schedule is as follows:
Tuesday - Presentation in International Economics class on the Harmonization of Education Standards in the European Union

Wednesday - Working my G.A. hours at the elementary school

Thursday - Presentation of my Review of Teaching Strategies for my Reading for the Secondary Content Teacher course

Friday - Working my G.A. hours at the elementary school; Girls' Night Out to celebrate the end of the semester

Saturday - Christmas party at the Millers'

Sunday - Flying HOME!!!!

After that, Matt & I will put up our tree, hang out with friends, maybe have some folks over...I plan to do some holiday baking with a friend. We'll just spend some quality time enjoying ourselves until it is time for us to go on our trip.

I think we leave on the 18th...I'm not sure, Matt has the whole thing planned. But, I do know that we're going to London, Rome, Venice, Vlock (I don't know if that's spelled correctly), Vienna, and Prague!

I have sooooo much to look forward to...I just hope that the next few days go by quickly. But, I'll be home within the week!

It Won't Be Long Now...

2008-11-21T17:34:00.002-05:00

As I write this post, I should really be working on a couple of projects that I have yet to complete for school this semester. Alas, it is a Friday evening, and I am pretty worn out, and just need a couple of hours to recover from a busy (and very cold and somewhat snowy) day!

But, it was a good day, too! I taught a full class this morning (it was my first time) and it went really well! In fact, it was leaps and bounds better than the practice lesson I taught to my peers in one of my education classes earlier in the week, ha ha. I had been fairly stressed about making sure I did everything right this morning, but everything just kind of flowed really easily and I feel tons more comfortable teaching now. Yay!

So those projects I mentioned above...yeah, well, I really need to get them done this weekend. And I will. The fact is...I only have two weeks left of school, and one of them is a short holiday week! It hit me today:

It won't be long now until I get to go home and be with the Hubs! Woo hoo! Color me excited!

I Fought the Law...

2008-11-07T15:51:00.002-05:00

...and I WON! This will be, like, the most brief post ever. But, I just had to gush over the fact that I triumphed over the Lords of Parking at ETSU! Woo hoo!

I had received a ticket for parking in a faculty lot yesterday. Today, I went to their little "Parking Court" and presented the facts:
1. Of the two entrances to the lot, only ONE has a sign advising students not to park there.
2. They have both blue and white painted on the curbs. I know blue represents faculty, but white (I thought) indicates open parking.
3. They have another lot across campus that has a white sign "Open Parking" and that lot has white paint on the curbs, just like the curbs in the faculty lot where I was ticketed.
4. There was another sign that advises that it is a faculty lot, but is not visible because of tree limbs.

I took showed them photos of all of these things, and respectfully requested that my ticket be dismissed. And they agreed! Yay!

So, it WAS just $20...but even small victories can make my day, ha ha!

Trial and Error

2008-11-03T17:36:00.003-05:00

Every weekday morning now I am observing a high school economics class for my secondary methods course. I'm pleased to report that I am being given the opportunity to practice teaching various concepts to the students. They are my guinea pigs, ha ha.

And, believe me, the experimentation is ongoing! Over the last couple of weeks, I've tried out several different techniques to attempt to find the ways that work best for me. I've had minor successes, but today's activity was a colossal failure!

On Friday, I had given the students a worksheet to complete in order to provide them with additional practice on predicting shifts in supply and demand. I guess they were terrified that they might not get it finished and would have to do it as homework over the weekend, so they all rushed through it.

I don't think I've ever seen such sorry schoolwork. I was incredibly disappointed when I graded their work over the weekend. They had seemed to know it so well in class...

Anyway, this morning I went in with a plan. A number of seasoned veteran teachers had advised me to provide opportunities for students to teach one another. So, my plan was to pair up the students in such a way that each pair contained one student who answered the question on the worksheet correctly and one who did not. Then, I called each pair up to the board to graph their answer and explain it to the class. In my head, I envisioned having the student who answered correctly walk the one who didn't though the process, so that it would be a learning experience for both...

The problem is that I didn't specifically state who I wanted to actually DO the work on the board, because I didn't want to embarrass the students who didn't answer correctly. As a result, the students who answered correctly were the ones who graphed the solution AND explained it to the class, while the other students in each pair simply stood to the side, and probably learned nothing.

I felt like a moron, but at least I leaned from this. Next time, I will have ONE student at the board, and instruct the class to decide if they agree or disagree with their answer and state why or why not. Or, maybe I can have the students work in pairs at their desks, and that way I can privately speak to each pair and instruct the one who has the concept down pat to coach the other student...

The good news is that I get to go back every day and continue my process of trial and error...

See Ya Later!

2008-10-16T15:02:00.002-05:00

Just wanted to do a quick post, as I am about to embark on a journey to the netherworld of unending schoolwork. Today, in one of my classes, I learned that an upcoming assignment that I thought was going to be pretty simple will, in fact, be an extensive undertaking. To top that, most of my classmates are working in groups on the assignment. Unfortunately, as the the only person who is studying to teach economics, I have no peers with whom I can collaborate. *sighs* Oh, well...I don't really like group work all that much, anyway. At least this way, I get to be completely in control. Just the way I like it, ha ha.

In addition to this project, I have a number of projects for other classes that I need to be working on, also. I will emphatically state that this mountain of work is not the result of procrastination on my part. Apparently, in one's last semester of coursework in this program, all of the professors assign most of the work to be completed in the second half of the semester.

I can handle it. I'll just have to abstain from social gatherings for a while. Except Halloween. I will surface long enough to don a costume and frolic with friends for that occasion. I'm considering going as Amy Winehouse...although after last night's debate, I'm thinking about conspiring with a friend to dress up as Joe Six Pack and Joe the Plumber...

Oh, and I almost forgot my great news! Guess who passed both of her Praxis II exams?! That's right. ME! Woo hoo!

Well, I've delayed my work too long now. I'll just have to see ya later.

Alone Again

2008-10-13T16:46:00.002-05:00

I took Matt back to the airport a couple of hours ago. It was difficult to see him leave, of course. We did have a terrific time during his visit.

He was here for eleven wonderful days! We went to my classes, ate dinner at some of our favorite places, had dinner with friends, spent time with my family, attended a really fun wedding, and even managed to go to a haunted cave! We probably could have crammed in a lot more activities than we did, but it was just so nice to be able to relax together.

I'm attempting to bolster my spirits with the knowledge that Thanksgiving isn't all THAT far off, and I'll get my hubs fix again then. And I have plenty of stuff for school to keep me busy in the meantime...

It was a spectacular eleven days with my honey. And now, I'm alone again.

That feeling.

2008-10-01T23:17:00.002-05:00

You know that feeling when you finally put to rest something that has bothered you for a long time? That thing that you did that makes you feel bad about yourself and ashamed of how you acted? When you finally make apologies and amends and everything is again right with the world?

Yeah, that feeling is quite nice.

I may not be a rocket scientist...

2008-09-30T21:08:00.004-05:00

But at least I got to meet some! Rocket scientists, that is. It's a pretty neat opportunity that I'm getting, actually.

Because of my G.A. position, I was offered the option to attend a workshop that was a joint project between ETSU's Center for Excellence in Mathematics and Science Education, the International Storytelling Center, and NASA's Jet Propulsion Laboratory on integrating storytelling into science curriculum. Although I'm not actually planning to become a science teacher (economics is my specialty), I accepted the invitation to attend. And I am sooooo glad I did!

Today was the first day of the two-day workshop. It began with resident storyteller Donald Davis opening with a story about his fourth-grade teacher, who took his class on an unforgettable journey around the world. What a way to start the day!

We were soon meeting the NASA scientists who'd journeyed from California to share their stories and information about what they are doing to search for answers about our universe. They spoke about their ongoing project, the Cassini-Huygens spacecraft. I'll freely admit that much of the scientific information was over my head, but that fact did not make it any less fascinating (or impressive). We participated in some activities, and were even given a small homework assignment to complete before tomorrow's session.

Definitely, the highlight of my day was eating lunch with a female scientist, Trina, whose passion is one of Saturn's moons, Titan. In addition to being absolutely brilliant, (Of course she is, she works for NASA!) she was a great conversationalist and incredibly friendly. During her portion of the presentation today, she talked about the women who are involved in the project, and something she said really stuck with me. I don't have it memorized word-for-word, but the general gist of it was, "Mediocre men succeed all of the time. We'll know that we've achieved complete equality when women who are mediocre succeed." Interesting thought, huh? I'm still chewing on that one.

Yay for being done with hard tests!

2008-09-15T10:12:00.003-05:00

I am pleased to report that I completed my Praxis II tests on Saturday. They were really, really difficult...but I think I did fine. I suppose I'll just have to wait to receive the test scores in about a month to know for sure how well I knew my stuff.

After taking the tests Saturday, I relaxed for a bit at the house, and then drove back into town to attend a surprise birthday party for a friend. It was fun, and I was finally able to get my greedy little hands on the Mid City Grill's delicious garlic hummus and garlic and apricot sauce! Mmmmm! Heaven!

Afterward, I drove to my friend Laura C's place, where we drank mojito martinis and watched movies and just generally chatted and got caught up. It was terrific fun. When I woke up Sunday morning, I attributed my stuffy nose to an allergic reaction to her cat (I'm pretty sure the cat sleeps on the bed I slept in).

However, it would seem that I have actually caught a bit of a cold, since I'm still feeling pretty puny a day later. I'm at home today, just trying to rest and feel better. I HATE being sick. Apparently, I was not diligent enough in my use of antibacterial hand sanitizer....*sighs*

At least I didn't get sick until AFTER my Praxis tests. Thanks goodness!

Update: One Month Later

2008-09-04T08:00:00.004-05:00

Yesterday was the one-month anniversary of the day Matt hopped on a plane back to Florida, leaving me here in Tennessee to work on my scholastic endeavors. I'm officially at the point where I want a visit. Me there or him here...I don't care which.

The unfortunate thing is, I have only nine days from today until I take my Praxis II tests. And they're kind of a big deal. As in, I don't get to do my student teaching until I've passed these tests. So, I can't really afford to set aside time for a hubs visit right now. *sighs* At least I'll soon have the Praxis out of my way, thank God!

In other school-related news, I have finally begun my graduate assistant work. Can you say, "thrilled"?! My duties are to assist a fifth-grade science teacher in her classroom at the best elementary school in our area! It's so cool! You see, one of the objectives of the Center for Excellence in Math & Science Education is to provide support for teachers in the community, so that they are better able to provide a thorough education for the students. So my role will be to do whatever the teacher needs me to do. That may include some busy work like organizing materials, distributing classwork or materials to the students, etc. However, it also will include direct interaction with the students, helping them with their work, answering questions, just kind of being the "assistant teacher" in the room! Yesterday, I spent the day with Mrs. Hull (the teacher to whom I've been assigned)and really learned so much! I couldn't ask for a more valuable and rewarding G.A. position than to get to spend 20 hours per week in a classroom, learning so many teaching and classroom management techniques. To say that I'm pleased is a vast understatement.

That's about it in the news department. Missing Matt. School's under way. Praxis II exams in 9 days.

Day Two: Soaked but Schooled

2008-08-26T21:09:00.004-05:00

Apparently, what's left of Fay has made her way into our area here. Consequently, it rained all day long today. According to the forecast, I'll be toting an umbrella all week.

No worries, though. I attended three more classes today, and I'm pretty excited by all of the things I'll be learning this semester. So, I'll happily slosh my way from class to class.

At least today I was able to discover which shoes NOT to wear on a rainy day, ha ha. One would think that thong sandals might be a good rainy day choice during the summer, right? Oh no, once these particular shoes were wet, they became so slick that my feet were sliding around in them most uncomfortably. At one point, I was even walking barefoot! (By the way, I don't recommend that, either.)

So my plan for the rest of the week? Tennis shoes, baby, yeah!

Back to School

2008-08-25T08:17:00.002-05:00

Today, I go back to school! Woo hoo! I'm really excited to go, and it feels like I've been back in Tennessee for ages now. In reality, it's been, like, three weeks. But, that's a long time to be just kind of waiting for a day to come, you know? Anyway, that day is finally here!

So, I have one class on Mondays and Wednesdays, and it isn't until 4pm. The bulk of my classes are on Tuesdays and Thursdays. Tomorrow, I have a meeting at the Center for Excellence in Math and Science Education to learn what my G.A. tasks, duties, and schedule will be. I have three professors total this semester. One was my high school economics teacher. I'd taken one of his classes my second semester in the M.A.T. program, and he was every bit as laid-back as he was when I was in high school, so I'm pretty stoked that he's the professor of three of my classes! The other two professors, I've never had. I've met one of them, and she seems pretty nice. I always get along with my teachers, so no worries there.

I have so much planned for myself this semester! Next month, I'll take the PLT and Praxis content area tests. I also plan to convert my portfolio to an electronic version. I see that as being a bit challenging, but will be a cool tool for me to secure a position once I graduate.

Wow, I'm just nerding right along, aren't I? I'm just so thrilled to FINALLY be getting to the reason that I'm living around 800 miles from my husband. Up until today, I didn't really HAVE to be here...although I most likely wouldn't have obtained my G.A. position via telephone from Florida.

I have managed to stay somewhat active while waiting for this day to come. I've been studying for those tests. Also, I've been camping twice. The first camping occasion was with my buds Robert and Leslie and some other folks. I made a couple of new friends on that camping trip, so cool! And, I just went camping the second time with Matt & Cora, from my church small-group. It was quite fun, too! We camped at Watauga Lake, and it was beautiful,albeit somewhat windy. I kicked booty at Yahtzee, ha ha! Then, on Saturday, I went to Robert & Leslie's house for a surprise party for their friend, Ian. It was quite fun, and I had the opportunity to play a Wii game called, "Rock Star." Oh, my gosh! That game is soooo addictive! We played it for HOURS. I find myself wanting a Wii, ha ha....But that would prolly not encourage my studies too much, so I'd better not!

The only other things that I haven't covered yet in this blog are some newsy bits that I've learned this week. Two of them are happy, one is not at all a happy report.

We'll start with the joyous new items. I learned last night, via a comment left on my myspace page, that my friend Tiffany is engaged! Yay for her! I don't know who this fella is, because Tiff and I don't regularly call or write one another, but I'm sure he's terrific! I'm excited for her, and since I'm only an hour from where she lives in Asheville, NC, I expect I'll get to meet him sometime relatively soon.

The other happy news is that my friend who was expecting has safely delivered her baby! Now, here's the funny part. I haven't heard this directly from her, and I didn't expect to, because this is a busy and hectic time for her. I certainly am not going to call, what with all of the upheaval of adjusting to life with a new baby. But, I really wanted to know that everything went well, so I clicked on her myspace friends (who I don't know, lol) and sure enough, a couple of them had listed her status as a new mom right in their status bars! So, I found out that I can stop worrying on her behalf. So, congrats to Crystal! I'm glad that little Evyn is here, and I can't wait to see pictures and hear all about it.

Now for the sad news. I learned this week that a friend has been diagnosed with cancer. He's a young guy, and I'm sure that he's going to be fine. I just hate that he is going to have to go through things like chemo. From what I've heard, he is approaching this situation with humor and optimism, which I think is the best possible way to handle it. I must say that I admire his ability to do that, and am not certain that I would be capable of doing the same myself. But, this isn't the first time that I've admired the great qualities this friend possesses. I don't know how much assistance I can provide to this friend, but I've pledged that he has my prayers and unwavering support until he has overcome this obstacle on his path to a bright, happy, and healthy future. I would ask that anyone reading this blog would also pray for my friend to have a speedy return to perfect health. Thanks.

I'm a worry-wart.

2008-08-17T10:16:00.002-05:00

I've always been something of a worrier. It's strange, but I'm also an optimist. I find it very easy to encourage others to not have fear, but it occasionally overtakes me.

My hubs put a few gray hairs in my head last night. Not his fault, because he kept me pretty informed about where he was going, what he was doing. But my mind kept running through all of the worst scenarios.

He and his friend, Jason, met up at the beach yesterday. I knew about this and really didn't expect to be able to get in touch with Matt until a bit later. But, as it got dark, the worries about sharks or drowning started to set in. Now, I myself had gone for a moonlight swim with these fellas before I came back to Tennessee, so I really shouldn't have worried when I didn't get a call from Matt by midnight. But I did worry. When he finally called, I was so relieved!

He then told me that they were going to hang out in the downtown area for a while. I told him to be careful and call me when he was on his way home. By three a.m. I was petrified that he'd had a drink or three and gotten behind the wheel (even though I know Matt would NEVER do that), or had fallen asleep on his way home. My mind played out endless possibilities. At last he called! He and Jason had pretty much just hung out and talked. Such an overactive imagination I have!

Matt told me they were both pretty tired, and rather than drive home at such a late hour, they both decided to crash on the beach. I immediately championed that idea, because the visions of him falling alseep at the wheel had been broadcasting through my mind for the last couple of hours.

Of course, this morning, when I woke up, I immediately worried that someone might have harmed them while they were sleeping there out in the open on the beach. I mean, ANYONE could surprise you if you have your guard down. Once Matt called me this morning, I felt better.

But I'm troubled by my inability to avoid fretting. I have just realized that I fear that which I have no control over. And that's no way to live. I don't want to someday become a parent who refuses to let their child go outside to play for fear of them being hurt. I believe what I'll do the next time I feel fear taking the wheel is pray that God gives me peace and reminds me that He is the one in control.

Outdoor Fun!

2008-08-16T17:50:00.005-05:00

I just returned home a few hours ago from a night spent camping among friends, old and new. It was terrific!

I hadn't been to this particular campsite before, and was really impressed. It was right on the river, and the ground was nice and sandy. I hate laying down to sleep in my tent only to discover a rock beneath my temporary abode! Luckily, that was not a problem for me.

You know what else wasn't a problem? Bugs. Yep, I was completely NOT consumed by mosquitoes; I was amazed. The closest thing I found to a bug problem was the chirping of the crickets, and I actually quite like that sound.

My friend Robert, who I have known since high school (when he used to copy my chemistry homework), is actually quite the good cook on the grill. Dinner and breakfast were yummilicious! I also discovered a new taste sensation: bacon-wrapped blackened marshmallows! Before you rule it out, try it. It sounds weird but it was such a tasty combination of sweet and savory.

Anyhoo, camping was a whole lot of fun! And to think, I've been invited to camp again next weekend (although it's with a different set of friends)!

Pretty Good

2008-08-15T09:49:00.003-05:00

I've been buried deep in studying for the last couple of days. And the trend will continue, right on up until I take those tests on September 13. I'm feeling pretty good, though, and thinking that my preparation will pay off. I'm about one-third of the way through one of my three study guides, and I already have reviewed a lot of familiar information that I just needed to have brought to the front of my mind.

Despite all of my studiousness, I am making time for some leisure activities. Yesterday, I dropped in on some of my old pals at ERAC, and had a great time catching up. Even more exciting is the camping adventure scheduled for this weekend! Woo hoo! The only thing I have to figure out is what kinds of snack foods I want to take along...Hmmm.

I also reconnected with my small-group from church. They are still meeting on Tuesday nights, and are currently reading and discussing a book. I shall attend and somehow manage to find time to read along, as well. Additionally, they are planning a camping trip for next weekend! Wow, camping two weeks in a row! Does it get any better than this?!

Well, yes, it could be better....I still really miss Matt. But, I suppose that is just going to be a constant as long as I'm here and he's there. But, we do talk on the phone several times each day, and thank God for IM!

Everything is going pretty good.

So far this week...

2008-08-12T13:35:00.008-05:00

Since my last post, I have obtained a position as a graduate assistant for the Center for Excellence in Math and Science Education! Woo hoo! That is a HUGE relief! No out-of-state tuition for me! I received that precious bit of news yesterday.

Today, I headed to my hairdresser for some much-needed TLC for my hair. Although there was a very nice lady in Arcadia that did my hair a couple of times, I much prefer Cheryl's handiwork. So, I treated myself in celebration of the tuition savings. I got some highlights (my beloved stripes) and a cut. My hair actually doesn't look vastly different than it did before. The color just has more dimension now and the cut shaped it up a bit. Matt had practically begged me before I went to not go short again. Hubs has a thing for long hair, I guess. Anyhoo, I feel quite glam now, ha ha. Here are some pics:

After I left Cheryl's, I stopped by my mom's office for a visit (and if I'm honest, to show off my newly improved 'do). I arrived just as they were doing a group lunch for my mom's birthday. I used to work there through part of college, so I visited with many familiar faces and it was nice to catch up.

Now, I'm back at the house, waiting for the timer to go off, indicating that it's time to remove the birthday cake from the oven. After it cools a bit, I'll make the icing for it. Some of you may be thinking, "I thought she couldn't cook!" Well, the fact is, I CAN cook, I just mostly choose not to. But, hey, you have to bake your mom a birthday cake, right!? And I just don't like the way store-bought icing tastes. I learned long ago that the best chocolate icing is easily made to taste with powdered sugar, butter, vanilla extract, and baking cocoa. Mmmm! Mom will be lucky if I manage to actually ice the cake instead of the inside of my tummy, ha ha! I feel a distinct need for some chocolate today!

So, mom's birthday celebration will consist of our family going out to eat together tonight. Which will be cool, because I haven't seen my aunt and uncle since I got back into town. Anyway, I'll prolly post some pictures of the dinner tomorrow.

When you get what you want...

2008-08-10T21:18:00.002-05:00

Am I the most ungrateful person on the planet? Sometimes I think so...

So, I wanted to go back to finish my master's degree. Poof! Here I am in Tennessee, waiting for classes to start. And all I can think about is how lonely I feel without Matt here. I knew it would be hard, so I've got to power through this. I'm just feeling particularly gloomy today, and on top of that I feel guilty for feeling gloomy about something that I wanted. Sheesh!

Here's another thing I thought I would enjoy but don't: not working. Who'd have thought?! I used to think longingly about watching Regis and Kelly and all of those home improvement shows on HGTV during the day, instead of working. Now, maybe it's because I'm at my mom's house, and therefore can't really work on any projects that I might in my own home, but I have been not working for less than a week, and I am bored out of my mind! I'm speeding through books and spending countless hours on the internet in the effort to occupy my time and mind. Because, if I don't keep my brain busy with something, I'm going to continue to dwell on the fact that I really miss Matt.

Please don't feel sorry for me. I think I feel sorry enough for myself. I am, in fact, ashamed of how self-indulgent I'm being right now. I resolve to find something constructive to do, starting tomorrow, and to cease being melancholy.

Feeling a bit childish...

2008-08-09T20:46:00.004-05:00

Ok, well it's confession time right now. I just did something of which I'm not too proud...

Anyone who knows me knows that I ADORE myspace, right? I like going to my friends' pages. I like leaving and receiving comments. I pretty much read everyone's bulletins (unless you post them, like, every ten minutes of EVERY day...THEN I might skip over yours).

So I have (or did have) this friend on myspace who was not (unlike most of my myspace friends) someone I actually know in "real life." She seemed like a nice gal, new to Florida, and looking for female friends. To be honest, if the town that she lived in hadn't been so far away from where I lived, I would most likely have met her in person for drinks and built up a friendship with her. As it was, the driving distance was too great, and so our friendship online was very limited. She left me the occasional comment and vice versa.

She apparently has gotten hooked on the myspace apps, like "feed my pet" or "I own you" or God knows what else. Anyway, it seemed like every bulletin on my board was from her about some application or quiz she wants all of her friends to try. Anyway, I just clicked on one too many of those nonsense bulletins and decided to delete her.

I'm feeling a bit guilty now, like I should have said something to let her know she was annoying the everliving crap out of me. But, then, I barely know the girl. Maybe she won't even notice that I deleted her....

So, was that as childish an action as it feels????

Settling In

2008-08-07T19:51:00.000-05:00

The transition from life in the sleepy Florida town to the slightly less sleepy Tennessee town of my birth is complete. Matt and I made the arduous drive last week, and just yesterday he boarded a plane to return back without me. *sigh*

Before he left, we did manage to do a couple of fun things, like visit my sister at her lake house, go to the zoo, and take a bike ride. Here are some photos of our adventures:

I'm glad we got to play a bit more before going through this separation. I am feeling a bit listless without my hubs, but I've plenty to keep me busy right now. Today, I ran a few errands that made me feel quite productive.

I dropped off some forms at E.T.S.U. and even found another G.A. position to pursue. I also managed to secure a wireless router, so that I can blog and read dlisted and feed my growing myspace and twitter addictions from the comfort of my bedroom. The installation was seamless and I'm very pleased.

I've unpacked and even organized my closet by clothing type! Having just read what I wrote makes me wonder if I might have a touch of the OCD...

I'm mostly anxious about obtaining a G.A. position. I've done all I can for now to acquire one, and I'm simply periodically checking in with the different departments where I've applied. I'll just have to pray for favor and wait.

I do have some exciting news to report...At least, I'M excited! Instead of the two semesters of coursework I thought I'd need to complete before student-teaching, I only have this one semester before being eligible! Of course, eligibility is partially determined by having passed the Praxis PLT and the Content Knowledge tests. I learned that I'll have to take those probably next month....So, I'm going to acquire the study guides and start NOW!!!

I can see the light at the end of the tunnel. And the tunnel isn't nearly as long as I had thought it was. Thank God, because this first day without seeing Matt has been rough!

A Wonderful Saturday

2008-07-20T16:21:00.003-05:00

Since I'll be heading to Tennessee in just a bit over a week, Matt and I decided that we had to have fun beachy times over in Sarasota yesterday. It was terrific, and I wouldn't change a thing about how we spent one of our last Saturdays together for a while.

We dawdled around the house until a bit after lunchtime. That's one of the things that I love about living with Matt. How we spend our time is loosely organized. It is completely ok for him if we have a leisurely morning and get around to the rest of our day whenever it suits us.

So, we drove over to St. Armand's Key and had a delicious lunch at The Columbia Restaurant. We enjoyed a pitcher of sangria made with champagne instead of red wine. So yummy! Matt had one of their signature salads, thoughtfully transferring the olives to me for consumption. I ordered, and shared, a Mediterranean paella. It was very good, but a lot more salty than I expected. I finished over half of my dinner before turning it over to Matt to complete. I had to save room for dessert, of course! Our waitress, who provided excellent service, also was very obliging when Matt snapped photos of her caramelizing the top of my creme brulee dessert. When we left, I was so full, I thought I might burst.

We popped into a couple of shops nearby, and I spied the cutest little baby outfit, so we purchased it for a gift. I was pleased that we came across that store, because we had planned to drive across town to the Babies 'R' Us store to purchase a shower gift later in the day. Yay for saving gas and time!

Next we headed to our fave beach, Siesta Key! I love it there for several reasons. First, the sand is so soft and white, it feels a little luxurious to stroll across it barefoot. Second, the water is always so pretty and clean. And last, but not least by any means, is the fact that Matt and I got married on that very beach! Suffice it to say, there will never be another beach that can compare with Siesta Key for us.

On our way to the beach, Matt decided to call his buddy, Jason. We haven't seen him in quite some time, because Jason keeps a social schedule (and work schedule, for that matter) that is ever-changing and unpredictable. Matt talked him into meeting us at the beach for an early-evening swim. Jason arrived just after the sunset, and the three of us enjoyed some beers and conversation, just before the bugs started devouring us alive. It had gotten dark, and against my better judgement, we all decided to go swimming in the ocean. I was a bit apprehensive, as visibility is obviously poorer at night. However, a few minutes into our moonlight swim, I made an incredible discovery.

Have you ever heard about stuff that can be in the ocean that is luminous in the dark? I had heard vague descriptions of it before, but never paid any attention. I was startled to notice as I was swimming around that the movements of my hands produced a sparkling effect. Any disturbance of the water resulted in this shimmering light that seemed magical. I pointed it out to the boys, and the three of us spent the next hour or so in rapturous enjoyment of this phenomenon. It was like I was Tinkerbell with fairy dust, ha ha! I don't know if it is some type of algae or what. All I know is that it was incredibly beautiful, and I'm so thankful that we did decide to have that moonlight dip in the Gulf.

And as if that wasn't cool enough, we were surprised to see bats erratically swooping and fluttering around us in the night air! I would never have expected that; I suppose I've always bought into the notion that bats only hang out in caves. They were devouring the very bugs that were trying to eat us, so I have to say that I'm a big fan of bats. And it was extremely cool to watch them in action.

And our adventures don't end there. I had gone back to shore to dry off, as I found myself getting a bit chilly in the water. Matt and Jason remained out in the water, and I tried to be patient while they enjoyed themselves. I was really pretty ready to go home, as it was getting quite late. Anyway, I finally walked to the edge of the water and called them to come in. (I felt quite mom-ish doing that, FYI.) Matt came in first and asked me if I minded him going back out to swim a bit longer. I told him that was fine with me. (Feeling mom-ish again, might I add.) As he splashed back out to join Jason, I heard him say, "You lost your glasses?!"

Jason, like many of us, needs corrective lenses for his vision. Unlike most of us, he opted to wear his glasses into the ocean. Apparently, while they were out there swimming, Jason was telling Matt all about how he doesn't believe in Christianity, or even in God. A few minutes later, he lost his glasses into the ocean. They both came back to shore, and I grabbed my penlight and we all trudged back into the water to search for his spectacles. Now, I didn't think there was a snowball's chance that we'd find them. I mean, it was the ocean, and the high tide was working its way in. To the amazement of all of us, after ten minutes or so of searching, Jason reached out his hands to scour the moving sands of the ocean floor and gripped his glasses! If that's not a sign from God, I don't know what is!

As a side note, Matt also lost his glasses last night, although it was not in the ocean. Somewhere on the beach, some glasses that look like they belong to an independent film producer are abandoned. Ironic, isn't it, that glasses lost in the moving, surging ocean are recovered, but some that are carelessly left on the beach are gone forever?

After a lengthy search for Matt's glasses, we called it a night and headed back home. It was a wonderful way to spend a Saturday.

Now I can Relax...

2008-07-19T09:20:00.004-05:00

This might be the first day I've been relaxed in quite some time. Today's agenda holds nothing but fun. How often does a girl get to say that?

The whole prospect of moving back to Tennessee to finish school has been a little bit stressful. Sure, I'm psyched about getting back in classes and moving toward my goal. However, it's rough to think about leaving Matt here in Florida when I go. We'll be fine, but it's still nerve wracking.

And then, on Thursday, I received word that the local high school has posted a position for a marketing teacher for this upcoming school year. It gave me a bit of pause in considering my plans to go back to school. However, after giving it quite a bit of thought and consulting with several people whose opinions we value, Matt and I have decided to proceed with the Tennessee move.

Even though this job at the high school is what I would eventually want, it seems like a better move to go ahead and secure my degree, because then there is no question about my qualifications. Plus, I think I would be nervous to get up and try to teach for the first time without having had that valuable experience of student teaching and being critiqued and provided with helpful feedback and suggestions. Plus, I know that it's easier now to obtain my master's degree with no children and no full-time job than it would be going to school at night after work each day.

This decision was easy in some ways but hard in others. My first reaction was, "I don't want to change my plans to return to school." My second reaction was, "But this seems like too much of a sign for me to pass it up." Upon reflection of both of these reactions, I discovered that the first resonated within me. I am more calm in contemplating my future with more education and experience behind me than I am in thinking I could have a teaching job within a month but feel uncertain as to how well I would perform. Anyway, we've decided: It's back to school with me, no matter what!

So, today is the relaxing day after agonizing decision-making. I'm enjoying a cup of coffee, and I intend to give myself a mini-pedicure here in a bit. A bit later, we're headed into Sarasota to pick up a baby gift for a friend, catch a movie, and spend a little time at our favorite beach, Siesta Key.

Changes.

2008-07-14T19:08:00.002-05:00

I don't have a ton of time to post, so I'll make the story nice and short.

My last post was about the out-of-state tuition dilemma, and I called today to try and get it worked out for me to get in-state tuition. Suffice it to say, I don't have a snowball's chance of that happening.

My only option to not have to pay almost $11,000 extra to attend school this year is to get a G.A. or T.S. position. And I haven't had much luck on that front, primarily, I think, because I've not been able to pursue it in person.

So, I turned in my two-week notice today at work. I was a little panicked at the thought of doing so. I'm a worrier, you know.

I'm just standing in faith that God will provide a way for this to work out. And my last day at the Y is next Friday. Shortly thereafter, I will be trekking to Tennessee to get everything squared away. More updates later.

STRESS!!!

2008-07-13T18:32:00.003-05:00

I seem to have gotten myself into a bit of a pickle. I posted on here a short time ago that I am most likely going to return to Tennessee to finish the M.A.T. program I began about two years ago. There is a bit of a kink in the plans...

See, although I was familiar with the policy that I have six years total to complete my program of graduate studies, I didn't read the fine print that stated that if a student is inactive for a year, they must apply for re-admission. It has been about fourteen months since my last class...

As I am in Florida, it's not like I can just bop up to the admissions office and find out what paperwork I have to complete to do this. So, I looked online and although I didn't see an option to apply for re-admission, I did find where I could apply online for admission into grad school. Which I did. Anyway, $25 dollars later, I am unsure as to whether I filled out the correct forms online....

To make matters worse, because Matt and I filed our income taxes jointly, listing our home address here in Florida, when I filled out the Federal Application for Student Aid (FAFSA), I listed the same address as we had put on our taxes. It didn't even occur to me that that would cause ETSU to consider me an out-of-state student. But, according to my student account, their records indicate that my cost of attending grad school for the upcoming year will be over $33,000! Holy schmack! I've got to call them tomorrow and explain that although I've been out of state for the last year, I have always retained my Tennessee address and always had the intention of merely taking one year off from school...Lord, I hope that they are able to change my status back to in-state.

If not, the pressure will REALLY be on to get a G.A. position, so that I won't have to pony up the out-of-state tuition. That's another thing that is stressing me...I have left messages and sent emails to the lady that assigned me my position as a T.S. my first year of grad school, and can't get a response from her. If I were in Tennessee right now, I could go camp out at her office until she tells me a solid "yes" or "no." Obviously, being a thirteen hour drive away, I don't have that option.

I'm freaking out a little bit right now. Please say a prayer for me that this all gets worked out.

Business as Usual

2008-07-12T18:40:00.002-05:00

After much fretting and assistance from friends, things are back to business as usual at La Casa del Hollomans.

We have a brand new hot water heater installed, and I have mopped the floors and put furniture back to its usual location. I even obeyed the urge to sort through the mountains of magazines and mail that we have allowed to accumulate.

Yesterday, while I was at the Home Depot, I picked up a suction plug for the bathtub. This is significant, because last week I was furious at my husband for not notifying me that the switch thingy on the bathtub drain didn't actually work to allow one to take a bath instead of a shower. I have been dreaming of luxuriating in a hot bath whilst enjoying a glass of wine....

Now, since we have a new plug for the tub and the hot water is functioning again, I was able to live out that fantasy...

Since the repairs and cleaning have been finished, it's back to business as usual here....enjoying each other's company.

Courting Disaster...

2008-07-11T09:54:00.003-05:00

Well, actually, disaster appears to be courting me. Right now, I'm at home waiting for some help with heavy lifting.

What am I needing lifted, you ask? The water heater that blew yesterday evening and sent gallons of water all over our laundry room, kitchen, dining, and living rooms. Suffice it to say that I was not thrilled to arrive home to have to rescue our new furniture from the destructive water. We had to use bricks to elevate the sofas, tables, and chairs above the flood. If I weren't so upset about this event, I would have laughed at how our belongings are up on blocks, reminiscent of abandoned cars in a redneck's yard.

Luckily, we have some friends who knew what needed to be done and called them straightaway. They lent us their expertise, labor, and shop vac to get the water out of our house, and even assisted with taking out the old water heater. Thank the Lord for them, or we wouldn't have known where to start!

Unfortunately, this disaster has caused me to have to call in to work today. I feel pretty guilty about it, but we wouldn't be able to have hot water until this gets resolved. The positive thing about this is that the water heater is under warranty, and when I called GE, they advised us to take it back to Home Depot, where we will be issued a new one. A small victory. So, soon I will have help loading it into Matt's parents' truck, drive over to Port Charlotte, and exchange the faulty tank for a functioning one. Then, we will be able to have it installed, and I hope to be able to take a shower by 5pm....although it may be postponed a bit longer than that.

There is a great deal of cleaning to do, and moving items back to their original places. (We had moved everything that wasn't too big/heavy out of the water destruction zone.) I would start moving things back now and cleaning, but I'm not sure if the installation of the new water heater might result in more water leaks...Hey, I'm a rooky at this, and simply don't want to have to clean the same thing twice.

Oh, and I almost forgot about the battle with the ants this morning! As Matt was leaving for work, I heard a thumping noise from outside. I checked to see what was the source of this noise, and it was Matt, angrily stamping ants on our porch. They seemed poised to sneak inside the house through any opening or crack they might find. There were a lot of them, so I grabbed some shoes and began to help. A short while later, I checked to see if they were all gone, and there were more, lots more. I promptly grabbed my keys and drove to Winn Dixie, where I purchased the biggest can of ant spray I could find. By the time I arrived back at the house, there were even more of them! As in thousands! This is war, I grimly decided and began to spray everything that moved. It was a mass genocide of ants. About ten minutes later, my front porch was littered with the bodies of my enemies, so I grabbed a broom and sent them to a mass grave in the yard. A warning to my insect foes: Do not try to come into my house. I may not have hot water, but I do have bug spray.

I hope that the bugs stay away and that we have hot water and a clean house before the day is out.

What all the "Kool Kids" are Doing

2008-07-03T20:14:00.004-05:00

So I attended a meeting today. Blah blah blah. I was jolted out of my dreamy, trance-like state when I heard a much-admired savvy co-worker state during a discussion of communication and marketing trends that myspace is on the way out. Out!?

Holy Schmack! I'd just gotten used to being "in."

Apparently, the kool kids are doing "social bookmarking" on del.icio.us.com and going on photo scavenger hunts on flickr and following and being followed on twitter...

Of course, I don't want to be an outsider or behind in the times, so I spent the better part of this evening checking out all of these sites.

And I've gotta say it: I still like myspace the best, followed closely by dlisted, blogger, and my plain old antiquated yahoo email.

But, I'm gonna give twitter a try....

And if I get no followers, I'll be really sad and bitter, ha ha.

Rain, rain go AWAY!

2008-06-30T18:36:00.003-05:00

It never fails. I always get rained on.

My boss told me last week to switch my schedule back to eight to five. "Sure," I replied and immediately altered my schedule to come in to work earlier. The problem is, I NEVER manage to leave at five. Because five is the hour that EVERY single parent who has a kid in our child care wants to pay. And it's the time I have a new staff person coming in, and I usually have to take a few minutes to get her settled and give instructions and answer questions.

And, of course, by the time I manage to leave, it's freaking pouring. Like it does EVERY evening in Florida. Sometime right after five.

Yes, I know we've had a drought. Yes, I know that we need the rain. All I'm saying is, couldn't it wait? Just until I get home?

I don't enjoy having my cute shoes get soggy. There is nothing fun about wiping raindrops off of my nerd glasses. This evening, I had an errand to run on the way home. "Oh, good," I thought as I pulled into the CVS pharmacy parking lot, "it has stopped raining."

Oh, no. I came out, and voila! It rains again, just to improve my dash to the car.

Rain, rain, go AWAY!

The Secret is Out.

2008-06-26T21:32:00.002-05:00

Matt and I had been keeping this to ourselves and just a few others, but today someone decided to spill the beans. I know what you're thinking. No, we're not expecting.

I am probably returning to Tennessee in August to finish my education. Matt will remain here, as he has a good job that he doesn't want to leave and it's not a good time to try to sell a home. Plus, I like it here. Once I have my degree, I totally look forward to returning permanently...Or at least until we move to France, ha ha.

It's not finalized yet, because there are a number of details to work out. Matt and I have discussed this very thoroughly, and we both feel that the time is best now for me to go and do this. It's better if I obtain my master's degree before we start a family, and my goal of becoming a teacher hasn't changed. Admittedly, I am excited to continue my education.

The difficult part will be the separation from Matt. *sigh* I'm trying not to dwell on it, though. I'll have plenty of time to cry and be miserable later. Instead, I'm choosing to focus on how this will position us for a better future.

There is a small part of me that is worried that people will gossip about our marriage and speculate that we must be having trouble to be willing to endure a separation of 800+ miles. But, I can't spend too much time thinking about that, because those who are close enough to matter already know how strong our relationship is.

Anyway, like I said, nothing is set in stone at this point. I had given my boss a heads-up about what we're considering, because I felt that was the fair thing to do. She was very understanding and supportive, and asked that I keep her up-to-date on this decision. Then, today in a meeting, she announced the possibility to my coworkers. That was unexpected, to say the least. So, I can only surmise that it no longer matters who knows about this potential move. The secret is out.

Powerless to Help...

2008-06-25T08:46:00.003-05:00

The last couple of weeks at work have been challenging, and a bit disheartening. Not because of any conflicts with co-workers or anything. Everything is pretty calm on that front. We've all been getting on quite well with one another.

Sadly, the problem is that the economy is severely limiting our ability to help everyone who needs it. We've been so proud of our policy of providing scholarships so that no one is turned away for an inability to pay. Unfortunately, the demand for financial assistance has been so great this year, there are not funds left. We've awarded more than EVER, and still people are coming in, asking for scholarships.

It's beginning to get to me. I'm not handling it well when I have to inform these families that all of the financial assistance for summer camp has been awarded. The next step is to reach out into the community to see if there are individuals or organizations that wish to sponsor a kid for child care. Somehow, we have to find a way to help these families.

Please pray that the Lord provides a way.

Adventures of a Tiling Queen (and other recent events)

2008-05-19T18:41:00.005-05:00

I have not posted on here in a little while, so I thought I might highlight a few recent events.

Work is about the same as it has been for a while. I was the chairperson for our golf tournament fundraiser, and we were able to net almost double what we brought in last year. Yay me! Apparently, the anxiety I blogged about in the last post was all related to that event, because ever since the day of the tournament, I've felt fine. Again, YAY!

My boss announced last month that she would be stepping down as the executive director, and I had reason to believe that I might be considered to be her successor. But, alas, she has informed us that she has reconsidered her decision, so my ambitions for climbling the ladder have been thwarted. *sigh*

My mom came for a visit over Mothers' Day weekend. It was the first time she'd been to my house here in Florida, and she liked it. It was fun to get her ideas for home improvements. She even purchased a birthday gift for me: a china cabinet that was an EXTREMELY great deal in one of the antique stores downtown! We took her to the beach and out to eat, we played cards with some of our friends, and we also had Matt's parents over on Sunday for a family meal together. I really enjoyed my mom's visit, and think she did, as well.

The bathroom is pretty much finished, THANK GOD! I feel like such a conqueror to have tiled the tub and have it come out looking pretty decent, if I do say so myself. I even feel like a pro when it comes to using the wet saw. There's just something about power tools that makes me grin...The only things left to do in the bathroom are to mount the baseboards and door trim pieces, as well as touch up the paint in a few spots. As soon as these last little nit-picky items are done (and I'm not really in a hurry to do them right away), I will post photos of my handiwork.

Matt & I went to Lowe's and Home Depot this weekend to price different flooring options for the rest of the house. We looked at laminate, as a friend had mentioned that it might not be a bad idea. But, when I looked at it, I just wasn't all about it. If I have a floor that resembles wood, I really want it to BE wood. And the hardwood was kinda pricey...But, we selected one type of tile for the main areas of the house, like the living room, dining area, and kitchen, and another type for the two bedrooms and the studio. Being the self-appointed Tiling Queen of the house, I am quite looking forward to August, when we are going to begin the next phase of home improvements!

Well, I think that about covers the recent events unfolding in the world of All Things Dana...

Recapturing my Joy

2008-04-18T09:26:00.004-05:00

By nature, I've always been cheerful and optimistic. I've usually been able to overcome adversity fairly easily. But, for the last few days, I've been plagued by anxiety attacks. I have been getting a tight, constricted feeling in my chest and an overwhelming sense of doom. It's been pretty scary. I've tried to pinpoint the source of my fear, worrying that I may have a chemical imbalance of some sort. I told my mother about it, and she's urged me to make an appointment with a doctor. I was reluctant to do so, because I don't want to have to take an antidepressant and become dependent upon a pill. So I've prayed.

This morning, I used the concordance in my Bible to find passages about fear. I flipped to Psalms 34:8-19.

Taste and see that the Lord is good.
Oh, the joys of those who take refuge in him!
Fear the Lord, you his godly people,
for those who fear him will have all they need.
Even strong young lions sometimes go hungry,
but those who trust in the Lord will lack no good thing.

Come, my children, and listen to me,
and I will teach you to fear the Lord.
Does anyone want to live a life
that is long and prosperous?
Then keep your tongue from speaking evil
and your lips from telling lies!
Turn away from evil and do good.
Search for peace, and work to maintain it.

The eyes of the Lord watch over those who do right;
his ears are open to their cries for help.
But the Lord turns his face against those who do evil;
he will erase their memory from the earth.
The Lord hears his people when they call to him for help.
He rescues them from all their troubles.
The Lord is close to the brokenhearted;
he rescues those whose spirits are crushed.

The righteous person faces many troubles,
but the Lord comes to the rescue each time.

I found much comfort in this passage, and I also feel the weight of conviction. I have faith that the Lord will release me from the bonds of this fear. While I'm not a believer that God's intent is to punish me for my wrongs, I do feel that I've stepped outside of His will, and that left me vulnerable to these attacks.

You see, I've had a great deal of frustration about certain things lately. Instead of being a peacemaker, I've allowed myself to become involved in complaining and criticizing others. I haven't kept my "tongue from speaking evil." And, I haven't "searched for peace."

If I haven't felt particularly blessed this week, it's because I have not been trying to keep the peace in my life. In Matthew 5:9, it states:

God blesses those who work for peace,
for they will be called the children of God.

I've prayed for God's forgiveness, and I know I have it. I've asked Him to restore the joy to my heart, and I know He will. And I'm going to stop complaining and criticizing, and instead I will search for the good in others. And I feel that the peace of God will return to me.

Home Improvement: Part Two

2008-03-29T15:02:00.004-05:00

Trial and error.

I at least have the second part down pat, ha ha.

As it turns out, you should not use a sponge that you just rinsed to apply wall texture. It makes it a bit soupy.

I had to scrape down my first attempt and start over.

But, it looks better now than it did the first time. I think this project will progress nicely, now that I know what not to do.

More to come later on.

Home Improvement

2008-03-29T14:12:00.002-05:00

I am pretty excited...Matt & I are getting ready to tackle the walls in our bathroom. You know, the bathroom that has been undergoing cosmetic improvements for the last year....

Here's hoping that the process of applying "knock-down" texture to the walls is as easy as the how-to websites make it look.

I will keep you posted as to whether it turns out to be a genius masterpiece or a colossal failure.

At any rate, I'd better get back to it!

Catching Up

2008-02-28T22:38:00.002-05:00

It's been a while since I've blogged. I'd love to say that I've been terribly busy, but that's just not true. I just haven't had a great deal that's news-worthy. But, for the sake of playing catch-up, I will elaborate a bit on the goings-on in my life.

Matt's aunt and uncle were in town for a couple of weeks, so we took advantage of the opportunity to spend time with them whenever our schedules permitted. I really enjoyed getting to know them better, and consider them my family, as well. We went over to Siesta Key and had dinner with them one evening, and it was terrific fun. I really love winter in Florida. With the exception of the last two days, it's constantly warm. It makes me happy.

Something making me not-so-happy is my work schedule. Well, that's not entirely true. I do like the mornings that I get to stay at home, but I hadn't factored in the fact that I would miss one of my favorite TV shows when I volunteered to work nights. Oh, well.

My job is about the same as it has been. Except I have no staff in my department now. Stinking recession and budget cuts. Nothing to do, except grin and bear it, I suppose.

I've been doing some preparation lately. Those who are close to me know how important this Saturday is. I will elaborate more later, but for now am keeping this private. I will simply cryptically state that I am hoping things will be different for me in the near future.

My marriage is the same as ever. Fantastic. In fact, in less than a week, Matt and I will celebrate one year of marriage. Yay! It's actually almost unbelievable that an entire year has passed. I'm every bit as crazy for him as I was the day we met. BTW, does anyone know how long a frozen wedding cake top needs to defrost before it is consumed? I'm really hoping it tastes ok. Well, even if it doesn't, we'll manage to choke it down, I'm sure. We are planning on our anniversary to spend the day at the beach where we said our vows. And then, next weekend, we're going to bop on over to Orlando and use our Disney passes that are about to expire. I'm really looking forward to it! I love going places with Matt, he's the perfect travel companion, especially on weekend jaunts!

I suppose I have now brought my blog pretty much up to date. Hopefully, I will have additional news to share in the near future.

Back Home...

2008-01-21T10:02:00.001-05:00

I went back home to attend my grandpa's funeral. Matt & I elected to drive, as we were unable to find flights that were affordable and worked out with our timeline. It was a seriously long drive, but at least I had terrific company.

When we arrived in Tennessee, we visited with my family for a few hours before heading to my friend's house to spend the night. After that first night, we stayed with my mom, per her request. My sister and my husband finally met, and they both seemed to like each other. Yay!

I maintained my composure about Grandpa's death throughout this entire time, until some of the songs he used to sing were played at his funeral. All of a sudden, the floodgates opened. It didn't matter that I knew he was back home, in heaven. I just felt so sorry for myself, that I would never hear him sing again in this life. I realized how very much he will be missed. However, that Grandpa is reunited with Grandma now is very comforting.

Grandpa had a military burial by the VFW Honor Guard, and my family was so intensely proud and touched. I even have a shell from one of the 21 rounds fired to salute him.

After the burial and a great deal of visiting with my family, Matt and I began our drive back to Florida.

Now we're back home.

It happened.

2008-01-15T15:04:00.001-05:00

I got the call at 3:15am. My grandpa has passed away. I'm intensely sad but calm. I keep waiting for the feeling of shattering inside, but so far it hasn't come. We have a long drive ahead of us, and I think I will most likely hold it together until we arrive. Please pray that Matt and I arrive safely in Tennessee. Please pray for my family, especially my mom and sister. I feel so numb, that I really don't have much to say. I don't think I'm in shock, necessarily, because I was expecting this. I don't know how to describe myself, other than in need of prayer.

Tales of a Mean Boss

2008-01-12T11:58:00.000-05:00

So, I feel a bit like a hag today. Yesterday evening, I had to become very direct and short with one of my employees. What I said to her needed to be said, but I hate feeling like a mean person. I will elaborate...

There have been some budget cuts that have made it necessary to reduce our expenditure in wages. In other words, some people have been laid-off and we've had to get creative with scheduling to ensure that we are operating efficiently. This essentially means that all of the full-time employees are wearing several hats.

This week, by the time Friday arrived, most of us had put in some 10+ hour days. So when the teenager that works the front desk on Saturdays called me and told me that she wouldn't be able to be there because her cousin was in the hospital, I was trying to scramble for a solution that didn't involve a full-time person working seven days this week (some of us are going in on Sunday to do some computer training). I couldn't come up with any ideas for who could cover her shift, so I called her back. Here's the part where I feel like a meanie...

I told her that I didn't have anyone who was trained well enough to cover her shift, and that she needed to visit her cousin either Friday night or Saturday after work. I know she thinks I'm a troll. I could hear it in her voice. I hate it when I have to be the enforcer. But, I'm like: why should her cousin being in the hospital keep her from being at work? Is she going in to donate a kidney or something? I realize when family is in the hospital, you want to be there to support them. God, I wish I could be back in Tennessee to help my mom take care of my grandpa! My mom gets up early every morning, feeds Grandpa, changes him, changes his bed, gives him his medicine, waits for hospice care to arrive, gets ready for work, goes and works a full 8-10 hour day, comes home, changes Grandpa, changes his bed, makes dinner, feeds Grandpa, eats herself, cleans the kitchen, does work that she's brought home with her, maybe watches a half-hour of television, goes to bed. The next day, it's exactly the same routine. I'm sure that my mom would much rather be able to spend her days making sure that Grandpa is comfortable and happy, rather than go to work. But, when you have a job, you go to that job.

The only reasons for NOT going to work, in my opinion, are being so very ill that you cannot do your job and/or being contagious, or an immediate family member dying or being so ill that you are NEEDED to be at their side. Maybe I set my standards for work-ethics too high because I have such a strong mother. But, I just don't see why her visit to her cousin HAD to fall into the 5-hour window that I needed her to do her job. And I said as much. Therefore, I will probably always be a bad-guy in her eyes. It's unfortunate. Was I wrong???

In the months to come...

2008-01-11T09:37:00.000-05:00

So, I've spent a big portion of my time talking and writing about how great everything is. And it is. My marriage is fantastic, and we enjoyed the holidays immensely. And my albatross of a car payment is gone. And I'm going to start working evenings, so I can sleep in every day. All of these things are wonderful.

However, my joy in life is tinged with a bit of sadness. My ninety-year-old grandfather is approaching his final days. Over the last month, he has been in and out of the hospital, and is now home under the care of hospice and my devoted mother. We don't know if he has weeks or months left. I do know that he wants to die at home, so hopefully, my mom can continue to care for him until his last day. In the time to come, I want to enjoy all of the wonderful memories I have of Grandpa. Pray with me that he is able to be comfortable in these final days, and that my family is able to let him go with peace. Pray that we feel comfort in knowing that each day draws him nearer to God and the company of Grandma, from whom he has been separated since her death over a year and a half ago. I spent time with Grandpa when Matt and I went to Tennessee for Thanksgiving, and I'm so glad I had that opportunity to tell him that I love him. I hope to make it back to see him one more time, but I'm not certain if it will be possible.

Please keep my family in your prayers.

Catching Up!

2008-01-08T22:47:00.000-05:00

It has been a while since I've posted on my blog...So much has happened! Matt and I went to Tennessee for Thanksgiving, along with Matt's dad. It was great to see my family, although I really missed my absent sister. It stuns me to think that it's been over a year since I last saw her. If that is surprising, it is even more so (to me) to think that Lori and Matt have never met! Unreal. Anyway, Thanksgiving was great.

Two days after we returned from Tennessee, Matt & I jaunted off to Europe! It was our belated honeymoon and it was fabulous! We visited London, Paris, and Prague. I loved all three cities, but Paris was my favorite. Sure, it smelled every bit as bad as I had been told, but I loved the language, and was even able to learn a few phrases. And people there were FRIENDLY! I'd heard that the French hate Americans, but it's just not true. The Louvre was spectacular, and we didn't even see but just a tiny bit of it. It probably didn't help that we were incredibly hung-over. (The first night in Paris was terribly fun, but I don't remember much after 9pm. Thank you, alcoholic memory loss.) I did see some photos of that night, and am somewhat embarrassed. Oh well, I can't beat myself up over it. It was fun. We met our friends, Claudia and Brian, in Paris. They were every bit as great as we'd expected.

We saw a couple of theater productions in London. To elaborate a bit, we had front-row tickets to both Wicked and Mary Poppins! They were both phenomenal, and I am loving reliving every moment listening to the soundtracks! Supercalifragilisticexpialidocious!

Prague, of course, is Matt's favorite city, and I loved it also. It was the prettiest of the places we've visited. Shopping there is also great, due to the fortuitous exchange rate! We purchased hand-crafted Christmas ornaments, gifts for our friends and family, and also a set of the bohemian crystal for which the Czech Republic is renowned. We were fortunate to have friends in this city, also. We met up with Sisina & Angela, both friends of Matt from online. We also made a couple of new friends, Neysa & McKenzie, who were recent Prague imports from America.

We made a lot of fantastic memories on our trip. Some are stories that can only be told aloud, not committed to paper, in my opinion. Ask me about the hotel manager in London and the peep show. Or about my antics at Dany's in Paris. Or about my lovely hat, R.I.P. I'll gladly tell the tales.

In the meantime, it's now January. We've long since returned from our trip. We celebrated Christmas, making new traditions in our new marriage. We rang in the New Year, perhaps retiring some old traditions...We'll see what this next year brings. I will endeavor to keep this blog somewhat up-to-date. I feel as though I am glossing over so many important details, but, alas, if I were to elaborate any further, I would be so caught up in talking about my life that I wouldn't be free to live it. And it is a fantastic life.

No Worries...

2007-11-17T20:50:00.000-05:00

The race is over. Literally. It has been a week since we held our 5K race fundraiser. There was so much work involved leading up to the event that I was somewhat out of balance afterward. The first few days back at work this week, I kept looking around uneasily, wondering what I was forgetting to do. It's hard to wind down sometimes, you know? I've learned a couple of things recently, though. One thing is that I shouldn't let my work dictate my life. Sounds simple, right? Sometime in the almost six months since I began working for the YMCA, the line between being a dedicated employee and being an obsessive employee got a little blurred...Please understand, there was no one at work telling me to work late every night and to fret about the things left undone as I lay in bed, waiting for sleep to come. No, I took that all on myself. It's just, if I do something, if I commit myself to something I care about, I want to give it my everything. But I shouldn't. My everything should be given to God, and He will enable me to do my best. My husband shouldn't have to eat dinner by himself because I just HAVE to finish what I'm working on before I leave my office. I shouldn't be so worried that everything will fall apart without me there to hold it together. I mean, that's a conceited self-important image I have of myself, huh? This is what I need to do: know that I am good at my job and that I am fulfilling God's purpose for my life right where I am today, and cease to worry so much. I'm not going to magically FINISH all the work I have to do; if I did, I wouldn't HAVE a job anymore (and with how the economy is right now, a good job is a rare and precious commodity, indeed). So, I'm not going to worry about tomorrow, because today has enough troubles of its own. And I'm going on vacation. For THREE WEEKS!!!! More about that later...

Our New Addition...

2007-10-24T21:09:00.000-05:00

Our little family is growing! Last night, the youngest of our little herd of cats joined us. Matt and I were cooking dinner last night when we heard a knock at the door. I opened the door to reveal a neighbor and her son, bearing a tiny calico kitten! She asked if it belonged to us and we responded that it didn't. She said they had checked with neighbors up and down the street and no one was claiming this sweet little one. I instantly begged Matt to let us keep her and he readily agreed.

She is the tiniest, sweetest, cutest kitten on the planet! She is fearless in her exploration and play, and we have named her Buffy the Mouse Slayer. We are beyond thrilled to have a little baby cat to love.

Too Little Time...

2007-10-12T21:31:00.000-05:00

There are simply not enough hours in the day. I have employee reviews to do, an agenda to create for a meeting Monday, a report to prepare for that meeting Monday, long-overdue thank-you letters to write and send to donors, a corrective counseling session to conduct with two employees, and loads of emails to which I must respond promptly. All of these things I had hoped to accomplish today when I went in to work three hours early today. None of which were completely finished. I love that I have a lot of responsibility at my job. I love feeling needed and a vital part of my organization. I must confess that I am feeling a bit of pressure right now. I brought work home, so that I can get some of this done over the weekend. But, my husband deserves my full attention when I'm home, and I want to give it to him. I am struggling to find balance between the demands of my job and my home life. There are simply not enough hours in the day.

Up to Speed

2007-10-10T20:50:00.000-05:00

A couple of weeks or so have passed since my last post. I shall bring you up to speed on current events in my life. In case anyone was wondering, I have recovered from my "read my mind" snit, thank God. It's so funny what I can get worked up about. Anyway, life is really good. I have a great deal to be happy about.

I have recently mended a few fences, which provides me with considerable comfort. I don't like to be at odds with anyone, it makes me all twitchy and uncomfortable. There are still a couple of people with whom I am ill at ease, but I have hope that I will someday be able to relax in their presence.

I am growing accustomed to my life in Florida, although I miss Tennessee and my friends and family there. Our recent visit was MUCH too short. Luckily, we are going back over Thanksgiving! And, after that, Matt and I are traveling to Europe, which excites me immensely! We plan to visit London, Paris, and Prague! I am beside myself with anticipation for this trip.

Besides the upcoming travel plans, Matt and I have become involved with our church youth group. Next week, we will assume the responsibility to lead the youth bible studies each week, as our minister will be recovering from an operation. I would ask that everyone pray for God to guide our words and actions with these young people. I am grateful for the opportunity to serve, but nervous as well. I have faith that God will help us as we go. He has already revealed to me in His word what scriptures to cover, so I feel pretty prepared...

I can do All things, through Christ, who strengthens me.

Can you Read my Mind???

2007-09-26T19:13:00.000-05:00

Generally, I like to think of myself as a fairly considerate person. I am careful not to interrupt anyone when they are speaking. I send thank-you notes when I receive gifts. I don't call people after 9pm unless I know for a fact they are awake. I don't invite myself to dinner or parties. There are a multitude of things I try to do to ensure I'm being thoughtful...

Nonetheless, I may occasionally hurt someone's feelings unintentionally. I may not think of that extra mile I could go to be extra nice. I really meant to, but...

I AM NOT A MIND READER!!!

In no way am I psychic. I do not know what is in your head. I can't fulfill your wildest dream unless you have specifically shared it with me, and asked me to help you. If you want me to do something, PLEASE share that desire with me. I can't be expected to know what is your unspoken expectation of me.

PS. This rant is NOT about my husband. (See, that's me trying to be uber-considerate of his possible concern that people might mistakenly think I'm talking about him.)

Appreciation

2007-09-13T20:40:00.000-05:00

Although I have thoroughly enjoyed my training in Sarasota the last week and a half, I must say that I will be glad to get back to my office and normal routine. Sort of. I did get kind of spoiled by being around so many great places to have lunch...and by the Starbucks where I grabbed my mocha's on the way home each evening. But, it is going to be nice to only have a half-hour commute each day instead of an hour. And my boss has been telling me how much she's missed me while I've been gone. Ahhh....it's nice to be appreciated. But, I got a taste of appreciation while I was in that computer training this week. A couple of ladies who were rather high up the ladder talked to me about offering me a position as a corporate trainer, although it was probably just idle talk. Still, it made me feel good, and if the offer came with a raise to counteract the additional fuel and travel time, sign me up! We'll see what happens along those lines...

Ooh, and that dining room table I made reference to in my last post? It now has a home here at La Casa del Hollomans! It is so pretty, and I am such a happy girl! I picked it up in my vehicle yesterday, and Shannon came over to help us unload it and set it up. Today, I assembled the chairs, and I'm feeling like a rather handy girl. Wrestling with the Allen-wrench left me with a sore thumb, though. Perhaps next time, I'll talk hubby into springing for delivery, 'cause then they'll put it together for us. I'll probably have to wait for a while before the next time comes, because I think Matt probably thinks I'm getting spoiled...and maybe I am. But, I am appreciative.

Bureaucratic Hell

2007-09-10T17:40:00.000-05:00

I need to take a moment and rant.

Before I do so, let me state unequivocally that I am supremely happy to be living in the lovely state of Florida. But that is SOLELY because of my wonderful husband.

I am having the most difficult time registering my stupid car here! Between the tax appraiser's office and the company my vehicle is financed through, apparently there is some kind of gross miscommunication. The tax appraiser's office needed the title of my car to issue a registration and license tag. The finance company sent it, but it has my maiden name on it. The tax appraiser's office says that they need permission to change the title to my married name. I relayed this necessity to the finance company, and they faxed a letter authorizing me (with my married name prominently displayed on the letter) to register and title my vehicle in the state of Florida to the tax appraiser's office. However, the tax appraiser's office states that they need the finance company's permission to change the name on the title. I called the finance company again, and they act like they've never heard of such a request! They told me that they (the finance company) don't EVER change titles, but that it is up to the issuing authority (i.e., the tax appraiser's office) to make such changes on the title.

At this point, I asked the customer service rep at the finance company, "So you're telling me that it is the tax appraiser's office's JOB to change the title, and that the permission to do so is IMPLIED?!" And she said, "yes." I asked her if she would fax a short sentence to the tax appraiser's office stating, "You have the permission of ____ Finance Company to change the name on the title from _________ to ________." And she said that she couldn't do that, because they just don't DO that.

I just want to register my vehicle and have a tag so that I don't get pulled over for driving without a valid Florida tag and registration. The temporary one I have now will end at the end of the month. At the rate this is progressing, I may have to start hitchhiking to work every day to avoid violating the laws of the lovely state of Florida.

*SIGH* I don't know what else to do...

Life in the Fast Lane

2007-09-07T16:38:00.000-05:00

My goodness! Life has gotten pretty hectic around here lately. But it's good! School has started back, and so there has been an increase in the things going on at work, what with the back-to-school specials, the re-opening of the Teen Center, and the After-school program beginning for the year. Additionally, I am in the process of trying to help with the audit of our programs that will be loaded on to our new computer system, as well as reformatting all of our branch's job descriptions. This past week, I've been in Sarasota attending computer training for our new system, so that I will be able to train everyone at our branch before we go live in October, and I will be in Sarasota all next week, also.

I don't mind the drive, but I wish Matt was with me, so that we could dash over to the beach after work...Well, he DID go with me on Wednesday, though! Wednesday was precisely six months from the day we married on the beach. I can scarcely believe that much time has already passed! It seems like we just married a month ago, really. I'm still finding myself amazed by how sweet he is, even though I should KNOW by now.

Anyway, Wednesday was great. I had to be at training at eleven in the morning, so we had a leisurely breakfast together and drove over. Matt dropped me at our admin building and took off to the bookstore to kill a few hours. When my training ended for the day, he collected me and we drove down to Main Street and parked. We walked a good ways down the road before we decided to pop into a wine bar called Grape. They have wine tasting on Wednesdays, so we tried a few, then lingered on to have dinner there, as well. It was excellent! Afterwards, we ducked into a store and both of us picked out some duds to try on for fun. It was good times, and I found the PERFECT blouse and purse!

As we left that store, it was raining. Chivalrous as always, Matt offered to run down the street to get the car and let me wait in the dry sanctuary of the store's awning. I declined, however, and we embarked on a romantic walk in the rain to our car...Well, as romantic as you can get with a husband grousing part of the way about the weather....But, he came around, thankfully. We actually had a lovely time.

Now that it is the beginning of the weekend, I feel myself unwinding a bit. I have been SO busy, I scarcely have had time to even check my WORK email, much less dedicate myself to blogging as regularly as I have in the past. I had told myself I would blog about the lovely hand-carved tables we discovered last weekend that we happily purchased to adorn our home, but now feel as though the time to gush about them has passed. I've got my eye on a new dining room table that Matt also loves which may be coming to live with us very soon. I will endeavor to find more time in the future to keep you posted...

What is next...

2007-08-19T14:00:00.000-05:00

It would seem that I have settled in to life here in Arcadia pretty much. Matt & I each go to work, come home, have dinner. Some nights we work out together. We watch television; we play on the computer. On Sundays that we are not feeling too lazy, we go to church. Pretty routine life, I'd say. And a pleasant one, at that.

I can't help but feel a little disconnected from church, however. Attending a Presbyterian church is somewhat different (in my opinion) from attending a non-denominational church. Different music, different routines. Although I like everyone I've met at church, including the minister, I can't help but feel as though I'm on the outside a bit. I've decided to remedy that. I want to get involved with the church, make it my home.

That's why I offered to help out with the youth group. And my offer was met with enthusiasm by the pastor of the church, so I feel like they could definitely use an extra pair of hands. I'm really excited about having the opportunity to be around young people and watch God move in their lives!

Matt & I stayed after church today to have lunch with them, and I have to say how incredibly bright and fun they seem to be! I cannot wait until Wednesday, when I get to be around them again, and be a part of their Bible study and fellowship. I hope that I am able to provide something helpful to them, whether it is in the form of being a positive role model, or being an adult they can identify with, or even someone to listen to problems without judgement. I just have to have faith that God moved me to offer my help because He has a purpose for me to fill.

Listen Up!

2007-08-12T15:43:00.000-05:00

I know everyone is going to be excited to learn that MattRadio.com is now broadcasting its live stream 24 hours per day! Click on the logo below to listen live NOW!

Here's to Our Health!

2007-08-05T08:03:00.001-05:00

Yesterday, I mixed business and pleasure. Since one of my employees was scheduled to work, but really wanted to go shopping with her mom, I agreed to work the Saturday shift at the Y. Matt had never seen where I worked, so I persuaded him to come to work with me. He actually really didn't want to go; he had visions of working in his studio editing audio files while I was gone. However, there is very little I cannot convince him to do, so he came with me.

I'm sooooo glad he did. It worked out really well. While I finished up some invoices and various other tasks that I hadn't finished Friday, he read his magazines in my office. Then, he went out to the fitness floor and worked out. Matt hadn't been to the gym in a while, but he surprised himself with his endurance. He emerged from the gym with pride and the desire to get in shape and live a healthier lifestyle.

He and I are on the same page. Although I have never had any struggles with weight or eating, I am now at my three-week anniversary of being smoke-free. It has been a rather difficult habit for me to break. Matt & I are working together now to support one another's best interests in regards to health. I am making an effort to help him eat more healthy foods (this involves me not eating everything that I want to in front of him) and he has been trying to run interference with me and other smokers (this means we haven't been frequenting our favorite Irish pub in Punta Gorda). Together, we are going to take advantage of our free Y memberships and work out together at least twice per week.

I am so happy that we are going to take better care of our bodies! Our life together is so wonderful, I want us to live as long as possible.

The Lesson I Learned (A Year Ago) Today

2007-08-02T18:40:00.000-05:00

For a year, I've wondered how today would feel. To my surprise, it mostly passed by like any other normal day. I was so incredibly busy at work that I scarcely had time to reflect on the fact that a year ago today my grandmother died. I really didn't pause to be sad or shed any tears until I was safely at home, in the kitchen with my husband. There was a moment earlier this evening, as I sat at the YMCA booth at the Hardee County Back to School Health Fair, that I saw a woman who looked so much like Grandma, that I nearly dissolved into sobs then and there. But, I held it together, like any other professional would. It has, after all, been a year.

I talked to my mom, and she had a much more difficult time today than I. She said that she kept thinking about different sweet little habits my grandma had, and how much she missed them. She said that she looked at the clock all throughout the day today and mentally figured what had occurred at that same time a year ago, when we kept watch at Grandma's bedside, knowing that she was going very soon. In comparison to my mother, I had a very easy day, with little time to dwell on such things.

But, I wish I could dwell. I wish that I had known during all of the precious moments that I had with my grandma how desperately I would want now to remember every single detail. Now, I'm falling into self-pity. And I don't want to go there. I am extraordinarily fortunate to have had her in my life for twenty-six years, and I cherish every moment of that time, even the moment when I was holding her hand at her side and watched her draw her very last earthly breath.

My perspective today is to relish every moment I have with those I love. And keep savoring my sweet memories for years to come.

Weekend on Little Gasparilla Island

2007-07-30T20:52:00.001-05:00

Ahhhh! After this past week at work, this weekend getaway Matt & I just enjoyed was exactly what the doctor ordered. We joined some friends at a beach house on Little Gasparilla Island, Florida, for a long weekend of fun and sun.

It was fantastic! Matt and I spent some quality time playing in the water. I don't think I could possibly have enjoyed body surfing waves more as a kid than I did with Matt. Check out these photos of my darling husband riding the waves!

I had a blast playing in the water, and it was enormously entertaining to watch my husband find his inner child while splashing about. We both emerged from the ocean salty, slightly sunburned, and renewed.

While on this getaway, we also managed to squeeze in a little fishing...Ok, so it was mostly our companions that fished (as in, at ALL hours of the day!), but Matt & I both gave it a try. To my great surprise and after quite a few false alarms (fish seemed to be able to eat my bait without my being aware), I managed to snag a fish!

And, of course, Matt has stories about his "one that got away...."

This weekend was simply fantastic. I felt like I really had the opportunity to get to know some of Matt's friends a little better. He and I managed to sneak off alone a couple of times and find little romantic moments in which to indulge. Oh, and another thing that was wonderful about this weekend is that I saw sooooo many dolphins!

Perhaps most native Floridians are rather used to seeing dolphins out and about, but this Tennessee native has only seen them in aquariums. I was so enthralled by seeing them that I didn't manage to get any good photos. They swim pretty quickly. The fact that they practically swam up to the boat (not quite, but very close to it), was incredibly thrilling. We must have seen nearly twenty dolphins this weekend! Perhaps next time, we can catch some fish to feed to them....

Matt and I had such a great time, we are considering going back next weekend. Our efforts to play hard have us pretty worn out tonight, but I think the fact that we took a break from working on the house this weekend and simply had fun will leave us refreshed and ready to take on anything we encounter this week. You never know, maybe next weekend we'll end up playing at the beach again!

Monday, Monday...

2007-07-23T19:30:00.000-05:00

The weekend was just too short. It was a challenge to propel myself forward through the morning to get to work. Once there, however, the hours flew by for me.

All last week my boss was out of town, leaving me (unofficially) in charge of the Y. It was fine. I managed to not burn down the place or do anything royally stupid while she was gone, and I tried to keep as much of her work done as I could while she was away. Contrary to what one might think, a boss on vacation for me = lots more work and stress, not an excuse to cut out early and slack off.

Gotta say I'm glad boss-lady is back. It turns out that I had a lot of great ideas while she was gone, and she seemed enthusiastic about me going forward with them when I told her about it.

I would continue to write about what I plan to accomplish in my job, but I have to give a presentation tomorrow at a fundraising event, so I've got to put my nose back to the old grindstone....

I love a good project!

Feelin' Chatty

2007-07-22T08:00:00.000-05:00

Last night, I had the opportunity to talk. A lot. It was fantastic, and it was recorded. My goodness, I LOVE my husband's radio project!

We have our friend Jason over this weekend. He is a great guest for a number of reasons. He provides much-needed assistance with our home improvement projects (Ok, I'll admit it...he is actually the one doing the work.) Additionally, he is funny and a good conversationalist.

Inevitably, our entertaining takes us to the MattRadio.com studio. We always end up in there, listening to music and talking about everything under the sun. Last night, Matt introduced a topic of conversation that led to a heated debate between Jason and myself. Matt loves to do this, and (I think) plans to spark controversy in the hopes of generating material for his show. I love it, because I am addicted to the thought of hearing my opinions broadcast across the globe. I can't wait until he edits the things we recorded and streams it on his radio website. The MattRadio.com site is in the process of being revamped, and we are really excited about all of the things that we have coming up in the future. As we progress, I will keep you posted. In case you haven't been to MattRadio.com yet, please do so. It will look like it does now for just a short while longer. It will soon be redesigned and be even better than ever!

I LOVE MY JOB!!!

2007-07-11T18:27:00.000-05:00

Today, I stayed very busy at work. I am finally getting the hang of my job! I love the fact that at any given moment, I have about seven things to do. I have deadlines approaching, small fires to put out, and lots of planning to do! It is fast-paced and exciting. Granted, the to-do list I constructed this morning ended up being only half-way completed...but, I relish the fact that I know exactly how my day will begin tomorrow. The first week or two I worked at the Y, I didn't know how the computer system worked, or what the policies were...I felt pretty useless. Now, I am staying on top of personnel training logs, invoices to be paid, departmental budgeting, etc, etc. The part of my job that I am really excited to sink my teeth into is our special events planning. I have about two weeks to finalize the events for the remainder of the month, and to begin implementing the plans for the rest of the summer. I am also going to be working on some huge projects like our 5k and our upcoming Biggest Loser contest. The rest of the summer is going to fly by as I am undertaking all of these things! Please don't think that I am saying that I will do all of these things alone. Far from it! I am working with such motivated people, who really have a vision for the things we can accomplish together. I LOVE MY JOB!!!!

Breaking Out of Our Routine

2007-07-08T16:15:00.000-05:00

Well, I have dawdled a bit on posting another blog entry. I guess I have just been caught up in the day to day routines that Matt and I share. We have been engrossed in watching television shows on DVD, eating quiet dinners together, and just enjoying one another. Until this weekend, that is. I don't mean that we're not enjoying each other's company, far from it. But, this weekend, we broke from the routine.

Our house is currently resembling a demolition site. Our good friend, Jason, offered to help us work on the bathroom that we are going to remodel. The toilet, vanity, and sink had previously been taken down in preparation for our remodel. Yesterday, we went to Home Depot to purchase tiles for the walls and floor. We also picked up a new shower head, some paint for the kitchen cabinets, etc. I picked out the kitchen counter tops I want us to install. Much fun was had at the Home Depot.

The three of us headed back to the house, and Jason commenced his destruction of the bathroom. He was tearing down tiles like none other! A plume of dust billowed from the bathroom and has settled on every surface of the house that was not in a room with a door to shut. While Jason was swinging the tile-smashing hammer, Matt transferred all of his music files to Jason's newly purchased external hard drive. Jason is excited to have his own personal access to the Matt Radio music library, and Matt is excited to have a backup of said library in case of some freak disastrous crash of his computer. After all of the tiles came down, we sat around for a bit and then we all turned in for the night.

This morning, Matt was lay leader at church, but Jason and I stuck around the house and began to clean up the mess in the bathroom. We bagged up broken tiles and debris for a good while. When Matt arrived home from church, he pitched in and we quickly finished Phase 1 of the bathroom demolition. The many bags of broken tile are piled out by the street for tomorrow's garbage pickup. The trash men are going to HATE us. Jason, apparently, hadn't worked quite enough, so he grabbed our lawnmower and tackled the backyard, despite our protests. Matt grabbed the trimmer and went to work on the brush around the fence line. I stayed indoors and did my part to ensure Matt and I have clean laundry. Finally, the boys came inside and we ate a bite for lunch. Jason departed not too long afterwards. We still have more to do, but that must wait for next weekend, as we are spent!

As for the rest of the afternoon, Matt and I have decided that we will take it easy. I read on the back porch for a bit, but am now happily curled up in my husband's studio while he sits a few feet away from me, contentedly converting audio files for his Matt Radio airplay. Most likely, we will spend our evening doing this, with a break for dinner and perhaps a movie. After all of the work we have done this weekend, especially today, I know we will sleep soundly tonight.

Finally!

2007-07-01T17:34:00.000-05:00

I am finally going to post some of the photos from our reception in Tennessee! To view the entire gallery, please visit my husband's website, MattRadio.com!

Parking Nazis and New Furniture

2007-06-24T21:20:00.000-05:00

Wow! What a weekend this has been! Matt & I have done so many things in such a short amount of time. Well, Friday night was somewhat calm, because he and I were recovering from the fantastic impromptu bonfire/dance party we hosted here at the Casa del Hollomans. To sum up Thursday evening in two sentences or less: We burned things and danced. Much fun was had by all in attendance.

Saturday morning, we lazed around for a bit, but then jumped into gear to get to Sarasota to meet Jason and Christy, who was hot off the plane from Baltimore to visit her adoring fans in sunny Florida. We met them downtown at The Two Senoritas for lunch, then parted ways briefly. Matt & I had some shopping to do. Next Saturday required a new dress, and Macy's delivered! We found the perfect dress for me. I won't even describe it, I shall post pictures as soon as they are taken next weekend at our Florida reception being given by my super parents-in-law. After we purchased the dress of my dreams, we found a matching tie at Saks. OMG, they were having a fantastic sale, and it was a STEAL! Our shopping mission accomplished, we made our way to the temporary beach abode of Christy and Shannon.

They were staying at Captiva Beach Resort, which is adjacent to the Tropical Shores, where Matt & I said our "I do's" over three months ago. Unlike Tropical Shores, the management of Captiva were not gracious hosts. At Tropical Shores, the staff says "Oh, you're getting married?! Let me upgrade your room." At Captiva, the staff says, "We're gonna tow your car." Mind you, we had parked my car off the premises, because parking WAS limited. This girl kept coming up to us, saying "My manager says you're in that Jeep over there, and we're gonna have to tow it." Our reply that we don't own a Jeep and that our vehicle wasn't even THERE fell on deaf ears, apparently. Our vehicle was NEVER at risk of being towed (because it was SOMEWHERE ELSE!), but it really chapped me that they kept threatening to tow us. I shall refer to them as "Parking Nazis" for the rest of my days. Anyway, after the Parking Nazi walked away, we (Christy, Jason, Matt & myself) headed down to the pristine white sand of Siesta Key Beach. We situated ourselves on a spot not far from where Matt & I married on March 5. We frolicked in the water and just generally enjoyed some time on the beach until Shannon finally arrived from work. He cut quite the imposing picture on the beach, dressed up to greet his lady friend. We all remarked on how dashing he looked, and then Christy & I tried on his hat. I felt like an extra in "Smooth Criminal."

At some point, Shannon & Christy opted to go back to their room. Matt, Jason, & I elected to stay on the beach for a bit. We wanted to give them a little time alone together. Jason was napping on the blanket. I was simply enjoying the ocean wind in my hair and the smell of the salt water. Matt wanted to swim some more. I quite enjoyed watching him play in the small Gulf waves. I delight in every move he makes. After he'd had his fill of swimming, I headed back to the room to shower and change. Matt and Jason followed shortly after. Christy and Shannon had plans for the rest of the evening to hang around there and be lazy (or whatever), while Jason, Matt, & I were going to go have some maki rolls at Pacific Rim. Unfortunately, Jason was having some issues with his car and elected to go on home. Matt & I were still going ahead with our maki roll plans, but it looked super-crowded when we were searching for a parking spot, and elected to eat a quick bite on the way home, instead.

This morning, we arose and went to church, thinking that we'd take Matt's parents to lunch somewhere here in Arcadia, since it was his dad's birthday. However, Matt's dad wanted to go eat at one of his favorite restaurants in Sarasota and browse through Barnes & Noble, so we were off to Sarasota again today. We had lunch and spent some time at the bookstore. Matt & I spent all of our time looking through travel books on Paris, the site of a future vacation. We found many places that we are planning to go, and I can barely contain my excitement! After we left Barnes & Noble, we made a brief stop at the mall, because I had forgotten to pick up a jar of my favorite moisturizer the day before. Then, we were off to the furniture store!

We HAD planned to go to the furniture store on Saturday, but time ran a bit short. Luckily, Matt's parent were agreeable to spend a little time while we finalized our decision to purchase a new bedroom suite. To my great joy, we also found the most PERFECT living room furniture! We all loved it, and it will be delivered, along with our new bedroom, on Friday. No more lumpy couch! Matt & I are both really excited about our new furniture. It is even more fun than I imagined it would be to select things for our home. I am stunned to realize that six months ago yesterday, Matt & I had our first online conversation. Now, we are making a home together! I am overwhelmed by gratefulness that God has brought me to where I am today.

More Sadness...

2007-06-22T21:31:00.001-05:00

Although I'm tired, I wasn't ready for bed when my husband threw in the towel on his effort to stay awake this evening. I was just getting ready to check my email and possibly kill a little time by filling out some silly surveys on myspace when I heard my cell phone starting singing, "Hips don't Lie," the ringtone I have assigned to my gal pal Leslie. It was unusual for her to call this late. Actually, it's unusual for her to call at all. Not much of a phone talker, that Leslie. She was calling to tell me that the mother of one of her close friends died today. This friend of hers is someone with whom I've not always gotten along, but on St. Paddy's Day this year, she and I buried the hatchet for good. We formed a very fragile bond of friendship, but we are by no means close.

I feel so bad for her. It must be so awful to lose one's mother. I can't even imagine. I feel uncertain as to whether I should express my condolences in the form of a phone call, or send a card or flowers. I definitely want to reach out to her in some way, to let her know that she will be in my prayers. Each one who reads this, please say a small prayer for God to comfort Amanda as she grieves for her mother.

Help me decide...

2007-06-19T21:22:00.000-05:00

This evening, I went to a Jujitzu class with my friend. Well, I watched. It looks like it might be kind of fun...I might decide to enroll, but I'm worried that it might spark up my hip problems if I land wrong from being flipped and what-not. I'm gonna give this some thought...

Overcome

2007-06-18T17:30:00.000-05:00

This morning as I drove to work, my mind was busily planning what I would write about this evening. I had visions of reporting all of the tasks Matt and I accomplished with cleaning and working on our bathroom renovations. Shortly after I arrived at work, all of these thoughts fled from my mind. Today was an incredibly sad day.

I am somewhat shaken at the strength of my reaction to the news that a young woman I have never met, never even HEARD of until today, has been tragically taken in a car accident. The town where I work is a very small town. Everyone knows everyone. It's somewhat different from where I came from in that way. When I came in this morning, my coworkers were discussing a sixteen-year-old girl who had been in a bad accident on Friday night. We were taking up a collection for her family, and no one knew if she would live. I was immediately saddened at the thought of someone so young hanging on to life by a thread.

As the day progressed, people could talk of little else. I learned that this young woman's family had lost her brother in an accident not so long ago. My heart aches for this family, knowing that they are experiencing profound loss for a second time. Later in the day, we learned that she has been basically declared brain-dead, her body being kept alive by machines, for only as long as it takes to locate recipients for her organs. As I admire her family's generosity, I also grieve for them, knowing that they most likely will be in a state of limbo while the search for organ recipients could take days or weeks even. Today I have shed tears for strangers, grieving with them for the loss of such a young life. And I am touched.

I am touched by the charity and support from a small community for its own. I mentioned that a collection for the family was being taken. That is something of an understatement. Not only did we adults who work at the Y contribute, but so did members who were coming in to do their daily workouts. Also, the children in the day camp gave.

I walked back into the childcare area at one point this morning to look for my boss to approve a flyer I had made. I paused at the doorway to where the children were to listen to what was going on. These children were emptying their pockets in an effort to be giving to this family. I listened to one of the group leaders talking about how Jesus instructed us to take care of one another. I listened to her, knowing that by praising the children's generosity and caring gesture, she was instilling in them a Christian virtue. I cannot express how proud I am to be working in a place where God's work is done on a daily basis. In a place where Christian values are taught to the kids that come there to learn.

I am overcome.

New haircut and other adventures...

2007-06-10T17:55:00.000-05:00

This weekend has been pretty fantastic! We slept in a bit on Saturday morning and then began to get ready for the day ahead of us. Matt started trying to figure out exactly how we would fit in everything that we had planned, and we ended up rescheduling a dinner with some friends of his for next weekend instead. I felt bad, but Matt insisted that they were ok with the change in plans. I hope he was right.

So I got my hair cut. It's pretty short now. I had been toying with the idea of cutting it for a couple of months, and I just decided to go ahead and bite the bullet. I'm soooo glad I did. It is much, much cooler without hair clinging to my neck! Plus, I think it looks cute, too. Matt agrees.

After the haircut, we drove in to Sarasota to do a little furniture shopping. Before we made it to any furniture stores, we stopped at Home Depot and picked up a Father's Day present for Matt's dad and also a vanity and mirror for our bathroom. I'm really pleased with the one we picked out, and I can't wait until we are ready to install it!

We had such a good time shopping for furniture! I halfway expected us to have completely different tastes, based on some of his decorating choices that were made long before I moved into the house. To my surprise and utter delight, we both agreed which bedroom set was perfect for us right away! We flopped around on many different mattresses, attempting to find the perfect one at the perfect price, and we were in complete agreement about that, as well.

We didn't end up purchasing any furniture yesterday, but we have agreed that we will do so within the next couple of weeks, as the mattress we've been sleeping on, well, sucks.

After we had had our fun on many, many beds, we decided it was time to "feed Seymore." We went to one of our fave spots, The Pacific Rim. We had some sashimi and maki rolls, as well as an amazing dessert! It was splendid.

We followed dinner with a movie. It was actually our first time attending a theater together. Because we were so full from dinner, I didn't get to illustrate my obsession for eating popcorn and Raisinets while at the movies. He can find that out whenever he takes me to the movies without feeding me first, ha ha. The movie we watched was "Waitress" with Keri Russell. I loved it! It is so NOT a predictable movie. While we were watching the previews, we came up with two more must-see movies, "Joshua" and "Evening."

After the movie ended, we opted to head to the beach for a walk in the moonlight. It was incredibly romantic. The beach was almost completely deserted. It was as though we were the only two people being bathed in the light of the moon and stars. All of my life, I have waited to have someone with whom I can share special moments like that one. I am so thankful for Matt.

Ouch!

2007-06-04T19:17:00.000-05:00

Precisely one week ago, I wrote all about how clumsy I am. I am now feeling the effects of my accidents that day pretty heavily. My elbow still aches from the sound cracking against the windowsill. But it is my hip that is plaguing me. I started off the day getting out of bed a little unsteadily. By the time I got off work, I was doing my best to hide my limp from my coworkers. Never let 'em see you hurt. Oh, Lord, but do I hurt! Matt was a little alarmed to see me hobble into the house. I have dosed up on some mild pain-killers and am hoping that this bout of the dreaded "old lady hip" is short-lived. If you get a spare minute, say a little prayer for me.

My Laughter-filled Life

2007-06-03T18:17:00.000-05:00

I have found myself reflecting for the past few days upon how much the foundations of my happiness have changed. Of course, my faith remains constant and the Lord is the rock to which I cling. The change has come about in a subtle way.

Before, I was happiest when I had events or activities to attend. My idea of a perfect summer day was to go boating with friends, and to go drinking or dancing afterwards. Or maybe it would be to go hiking or camping with my friends. Always, I had to be DOING something or GOING somewhere. I still enjoy these things...

However, I am finding that I am just as content to watch a movie with my husband, delighting in the fact that we find the same moments or phrases particularly funny or poignant. I find just as much joy driving to church, both of us loudly singing a song we both love. Our excursions to the grocery store (and anyone who knows me well knows I HATE grocery shopping) are even fun as I ride on the cart that Matt pushes. I love that there is not a day that goes by that is not filled with laughter. Laughter over our silly cats, especially Buster, who gets a little antsy every evening and entertains us with his odd behavior. Laughter over my husband's attempts to "drop it like it's hot" upon my request. My goodness, you should have seen it! It was hilarious! Laughter over my terrible impression of a Japanese fan of Godzilla and Mothra.

I am happier now than I've ever been in my entire life. And it is not because I have a flurry of social engagements to attend. It is because I have the best companionship I could ever want.

The Epitome of Gracefulness

2007-05-28T21:46:00.000-05:00

I must be the most clumsy girl on the planet. Matt and I started our day by him cleaning the kitchen and me doing laundry. I got a little cranky when I was putting clean sheets on the bed and broke a nail while tugging on a blanket. That should have been my clue to check myself before I wrecked myself.

But, no...As I was putting some clothes into the dryer, I hit my "old lady hip" on the dryer door. It hurt sooooo badly. I'm really glad I put an ice pack on it, because I am barely even limping, which is usually not the case when my hip is injured. But, it didn't stop there.

As I was putting my hair into a ponytail in preparation of a pool party we were attending this evening, I cracked my elbow on a hard stone windowsill. It still aches, even five hours later. This was more than just hitting the old funny bone. I am toying with the idea that I have perhaps fractured my ulna. Or is it the radius? Hell, I don't know. It f-ing hurts.

When we were walking out the door to go to the party, I handed the keys to my husband, because I sure didn't feel very lucky. Ok, that's a lie. I am exceedingly lucky. I just don't feel particularly competent or graceful.

However, I joyfully report that I have sustained no further injuries on this calendar day. But, I do have one more hour before it is officially tomorrow. Keep your fingers crossed that I manage to make it to bed without losing a limb.

Ah...La Fin Du Monde!

2007-05-27T18:58:00.000-05:00

So I recovered yesterday enough to attend an early birthday celebration for one of our friends. We had some beer at the Celtic Ray...I should say I probably had MUCH beer. Matt kindly opted to be our designated driver. I learned last night that the beverages offered at that great establishment are quite potent. I had only three beers at the Celtic Ray, but OH was I tipsy! The La Fin Du Monde particularly contributed to my inebriation...

After a quick trip to the cigar bar, Moosehead's, and the River City Grill, I got my first glimpse of what is known as "the Poon," AKA, Harpoon Harry's. It didn't seem as though we were there for more than just a few minutes, but for good-natured Matt, it was an eternity. He hates that place. After having gone there, I am indifferent. I might be persuaded to go again, but I didn't fall in love with it. I love to dance, but by the time we got there, I was really too tipsy to even dance with any semblance of rhythm or skill. I'm sure I was quite funny to watch, but I'm not sure that anyone could have even spotted me on that crowded dance floor!

I woke up this morning and felt my oats a bit. Matt, his father, and I drove to the airport to pick up Matt's mom, who was returning from a visit with her sister in Maryland. We had a nice lunch and browsed through books at Barnes & Noble for a while. We located a Home Depot, and Matt and I selected the new vanity we are going to purchase for the bathroom we are in the process of redoing. After quickly looking at tile, we have an idea of what we want to do to the kitchen after the bathroom is finished. I picked up a catalogue of patio furniture, and looked at it as we drove back to Arcadia. Once we dropped Matt's parents back at their house, we looked at each other and agreed that we needed a nap in the worst way!

I think we will most likely have a quick bite for dinner and watch a movie borrowed from "the Movie Man." This was quite a pleasant day, and I am glad to know that I can procrastinate on housecleaning until tomorrow.

Ugh...

2007-05-26T15:55:00.000-05:00

Matt is so good to me. He makes me breakfast and cuddles with me to watch movies. There is not anything the man wouldn't do to make me feel better! I really do believe he would opt to suffer through the aches and cramps that are plaguing me today. Of course he can't. And I seem to be unable to separate my mood from the physical pains I am experiencing today, so Matt is also being treated to my "crotchiliciousness." Poor fella. Maybe a nap would improve my disposition. Eh, I'm obviously not in a primo writing mood. I'll catch all you peeps later.

Same Dream

2007-05-23T20:04:00.000-05:00

I got a taste today of what my new job is going to be like. I am thrilled! I will be working with such amazing people, who are each one driven and purposeful in furthering the mission of the organization for which we work. I am completely humbled and grateful that the Lord opened up the door for me to be employed by the YMCA. Through my position, I will be able to touch the lives of so many people in the community, especially those for whom there is a special place in my heart, young women. For some time, I have lamented the fact that young women have few people who are invested in making their lives better, in encouraging them, and helping them realize their value as individuals, apart from the the superficial appearance-based value assessed to them by our culture. I learned today that I will have the opportunity to talk to them and teach them about self-esteem. I have wanted this role for quite some time. This desire to lead young ladies down a path to self-love is what first prompted me to become a teacher. I am moved beyond words that I have this opportunity, even though the remainder of my education is on hold for a bit and some time may pass before I am able to be a teacher in a regular classroom. Today, I realized that some dreams can be achieved, even when they take a different form from the original dream. So my dream is still the same, just in a slightly different form.

Thank the LORD!

2007-05-21T20:36:00.000-05:00

When I woke up this morning, my plans for the day included some laundry and light housecleaning, as well as scraping those heinous love bugs off of my car. A phone call around nine-thirty changed the entire direction of my day, although I did manage to do some laundry and wash my car, sort of.

The phone call was from the director of the Hardee County YMCA. This was the phone call that I expected to receive last week, scheduling my second interview for the position I had applied for as membership director. Apparently, that I didn't get a phone call last week was simply an oversight. I was incredibly relieved to know that I had not completely misinterpreted how well my first interview went. I readily agreed to come in for my second interview after lunch today.

To make a long story short, I went. And emerged as the new Director of Membership for Hardee County YMCA! I am so excited to work for this organization for several reasons. The first of which is that I will no longer be a succubus, causing my husband to have to field all of our expenses alone. But, any job would have accomplished THAT. This job is special because it will enable me to be a positive force in our local community. I have often thought how great it would be to work for a non-profit organization and to really make a difference in people's lives. Now, I will be in a position to do just that! I am ecstatic!

After they advised me I had the job, we did some paperwork and then I went off to be drug-tested and fingerprinted. I will be starting my new position as soon as they have the results of my drug test back. So, I informed my husband he only has at most a couple more days to enjoy me in the role of housewife!

By the way, thank you to everyone who encouraged me when I was feeling a little down over the seeming futility of my job search. Once again, the Lord has provided for me what I need.

Close to Perfect

2007-05-20T18:37:00.000-05:00

Yesterday was close to perfect. So close that the line between utterly blissful and completely perfect is indistinguishable. The only thing that caused that line to be present at all was the love bug factor...

Before Matt and I left the house yesterday, we used our new toaster oven for the first time. There was a small sticker on the toaster oven that warned that it emits smoke the first few times it is used. This sticker directly contributed to the fact that I credited that warning label when I saw a pretty good amount of smoke rising from the toaster oven...A few moments later, I saw that I had failed to remove a piece of cardboard inside the oven. It was burning quite nicely inside, along with the sandwiches we were toasting. My good-natured husband even declined to make fun of my novice cooking skills. Our day was off to a wonderful start!

After we scarfed our sandwiches (and put out the cardboard-fire inside the toaster oven), we bopped on down to the Arcadia Watermelon Festival. After we had seen our fill of crafts and food vendors, we meandered to a particularly interesting exhibit. It had a bird of some sort (white and very pretty) as well as a baby alligator! It was cool. Next, we went to the Young Professionals booth and got down to the business of making and peddling watermelon slushes. It was quite fun, and I met a lot more of the friendly natives of this town. The only downside was the fact that the ever-present love bugs seemed to be attempting to contaminate the ingredients supply. We did, however, diligently guard against this. I can unequivocally state that we served no slushes with love bugs or parts of love bugs in them!

After we had served the slushes for a couple of hours, we headed on down to Brenda Lee's to have a quick bite and wash the watermelon juice off our hands. As usual, both the service and food at Brenda Lee's was excellent! We learned that the sweet girl who works at the front counter is moving on to another job and wished her well.

Next, we were off to the beach! The water temperature was just right. As we frolicked on the same beach where we said our vows, the sun sparkled off the water like zillions of diamonds. We played in the water, enjoying ourselves immensely. Then, my husband's wedding ring came off his finger as he was swimming underwater! When he told me this, I thought he was surely joking. After his repeated attempts to dive under the water to find it, I became convinced of his sincerity. I think he thought I would get bent out of shape about it, but I merely reassured him that it would be ok. The fact is, we had purchased two wedding bands for him, because we weren't sure what size would be better, so we had a backup ring. He said his hand felt naked without his ring, so I took off my band and gave it to him to wear.

As we happily munched our way through several maki rolls, I kept glancing at my husband's hand, laughing as he commented that the sparkles it made caused him to feel like Liberace.

We had a near-perfect day, and my husband's backup wedding ring is now safely located on the fourth finger of his left hand. Right where it should be.

Net Effect = Content

2007-05-18T16:02:00.000-05:00

Well, the job search is ongoing. Apparently I misjudged the interview that I thought went so well, because the director of that organization STILL hasn't called me back as promised to set up a second interview. Even after I left a follow-up thank-you message. I'm kinda bummed on the job front. I never anticipated that finding a job down here would be so difficult. It seemed like it was very easy to find a job back in Tennessee. Go figure. I am officially lowering my standards for an acceptable job.

There are many positive things about being here, though. The most obvious of these is my super hubby. For him, I will continue to brave the hordes of love bugs currently plaguing the state of Florida. He made me breakfast today while I was still snoozing. He often surprises me with thoughtful gestures like that. I thank God for bringing him into my life. I am ecstatically happy to be married to such a wonderful man!

Another great thing is our proximity to the beach! Which we are going to exploit tomorrow after we have served up snow cones at the Watermelon Festival. I can't wait! Matt even suggested indulging my craving for maki rolls, since we'll be in Sarasota already for the beach. Tomorrow is looking like a very good day, indeed.

So basically, life in Florida is super except for my lack of a job and the heinous bugs which dwell here....These things temper my good spirits a bit. The overall net effect is one of contentment.

Now I AM slowing down...

2007-05-15T17:40:00.000-05:00

My husband is reading quietly beside me on the couch. One of our kitties is curled up sleeping on the other couch. The ceiling fan whirs above us, the breeze it creates pulls the hair away from my face. I never thought a moment this calm would be so pleasing to me.

I have always thrived on being in the center of excitement. I often barely pause after finishing one task before beginning another. This quiet little town in Florida may just teach me some lessons on taking it easy.

This morning, I took advantage of the opportunity to sleep in a bit, a luxury that I was somewhat unaccustomed to in Tennessee. I accepted an invitation for lunch downtown and enjoyed a leisurely conversation with my lunch companion for a good portion of the afternoon. Still not completely able to spend an entire day without doing some sort of work, I rounded up cat hair with a swiffer and did several loads of laundry. I could get used to being a housewife. But it won't improve my odds of getting that Sarasota shopping trip for which I'm hankering!

This period of inactivity is most likely going to be very brief. Tomorrow I have a job interview about which I have very high hopes. Once I have a job secured, a hectic schedule will most likely be in my future. Or perhaps not. Maybe I will adopt a pace that fits the small town in which I am making my home.

I haven't slowed down yet...

2007-05-14T15:09:00.000-05:00

Life hasn't stopped moving at a rapid pace just because I've changed locations. Having barely arrived in Florida, I attended a literary club meeting, lost my cat, went to a job interview, unpacked, cleaned house, had a party, searched for jobs, found my cat, and am having a guest for dinner tonight....Whew! I think we're volunteering at a booth for the upcoming Watermelon Festival this weekend, also.

I will be so glad when I've found a job and settle into some sort of routine. The Lord has been really good to us, though. We safely drove down from Tennessee to Florida on Monday and Tuesday of last week, with the only detrimental effects being the millions of dead love bugs plastered all over my car and one slightly drunk kitty.

Can I just pause for a moment and sing the praises of the wonderful feline traveling aid known as "Calm Down Kitty"? It is marvelous. At some point during the trip, I even threatened to administer some Calm Down Kitty to my nervous passenger (my husband)! We had so many laughs over silly things during the trip down. This was our first long car ride together, and we had NO disputes over the temperature of the car! It was amazing. I did, however, learn that my husband is grateful that he thinks Red Bull tastes like "cranberry-flavored goat piss," as he thinks it is overpriced. He is probably right. About the price, that is. I happen to dig the taste of Red Bull.

We are settling into our life together, learning each other's nuances and pet peeves. Any differences we encounter, I happily report that we resolve them quickly. My breath still catches as I think about how blessed and loved I am. My heart overflows with love and affection for my husband. Although we are still moving at a rapid pace to get me accustomed to my new life in Arcadia, our love remains constant.

Tomorrow!

2007-05-02T09:12:00.000-05:00

I can barely believe it! Tomorrow evening I will be reunited with my husband! My breath catches even as I think about it. I cannot stop smiling. The moment I step into his arms and never again have to walk out of them is a moment I have waited for since December 24th. And it is TOMORROW!

With that in mind, I am busily mentally cataloguing everything which must be done today and tomorrow to be ready for my big move. I have to go get some boxes to begin packing. I need to do laundry and sort summer vs winter clothes. I need to make a list of the gifts we've received and who they're from for thank-you cards. I need to clean my car of all of the junk so I can have room for the luggage of hubby, parents, and Shannon. I am having lunch with one of my girlfriends and dinner with another of my girlfriends. In between those girl-dates, I have another girlfriend coming by to hang with me while I pack and to do a little altering on my dress for Saturday. I need to go have my prescription refilled, and I did promise myself a pedicure for good behavior....

There are a lot of things to do, but I am so ecstatic that my husband is arriving tomorrow, I imagine I will float through my entire day!

Blankness

2007-04-30T22:59:00.000-05:00

I sat down earlier with my fingers poised over the keyboard, ready to share my thoughts with the world, and realized that every last one of my thoughts had fled from my mind. I was Completely Blank. This was a new experience for me. I always have something to share. Maybe I have too much to think about to pin down one particular thing to write about this evening. My emotions cover a wide spectrum today. I am so grateful for my husband. I am so excited that we'll be reunited in three days! I am still disgruntled about the whole group paper debacle that is STILL not completely resolved. I am a little bummed about some phone calls I didn't receive today. I am cheered by a sweet card from my husband and by a birthday cake my mom baked for me. I guess all of these things together have a net effect of leaving me blank. Go figure. I suppose I will try again tomorrow.

An Economic Fairy Tale...

2007-04-29T22:00:00.000-05:00

...Well, not quite. I have a presentation tomorrow and a test on Tuesday. If it weren't for the Group Project From Hell, I'd be doing pretty good right now...It all began so innocently...

Once upon a time, there was this grad student who took a course in macroeconomics. As hard as she tried, she could not make herself pay attention to the monotone lecture of the professor. Sadly, when it came time for the grad student to begin work on her final project, she didn't understand many of the concepts covered in class. Luckily, the boring monotone professor said that the students in the class could work together on the project! Yay for teamwork! However, the unprepared grad student found herself in a group with people who yelled profanities at one another in a different language over differing opinions about economic theory! So, the grad student found herself feeling not only as if she didn't understand the concepts but also very uncomfortable with the group dynamics. She fervently wished the project were completed and her semester finished.

To be continued...

I see the LIGHT!

2007-04-29T06:59:00.000-05:00

Yay! I just cleared another hurdle on my way to finishing up this semester! I'm not going to complain about the fact that I had to wait up until nearly 1am to receive the tools necessary to clear this hurdle and by 5am still had not received all of said tools....I'm just gonna be content that I accomplished what I did and not hold a grudge against anyone who perhaps didn't send her section of a group project in a timely manner...Well, maybe I will for just a day or so. I don't know, we'll see this afternoon when I begin to feel sleep-deprived. That may end up having some bearing on my good nature (or lack thereof).

Anyway, after working all day and a group project meeting this evening, tonight I should be able to fully assemble my other presentation for tomorrow afternoon. At that point, I will only have one test remaining until I am finished! I can see the light at the end of the tunnel!

God's Timing

2007-04-27T22:13:00.000-05:00

My mantra is "God's timing is perfect timing." It is a truth I revel in daily. If I had met my husband before I did, one or both of us wouldn't have been ready for the other. It is a comfort when I find myself wanting what cannot be at this very moment. It is the thought I try to share with others when they need comfort because of unrealized hopes or dreams. Just because something isn't occurring right now doesn't mean it won't ever. Perhaps the things that we go through in the present enable the Lord to bless us more abundantly in the future. As I grapple with my impatience, and a tinge of sadness today, I remember. God's timing is perfect timing.

I got sucked in....

2007-04-23T17:14:00.000-05:00

In celebration of my completion of my research paper, I gave myself the night off from schoolwork tonight. As I played online, I had E! network on for background noise. I scarcely noticed as the top celebrity fashion faux pas faded into the top ten ways to survive a celebrity scandal. At some point, I got sucked in. And I'm not particularly proud of it. Don't get me wrong, I like celebrity news and gossip just like everyone else, but it just struck me as so WRONG when there is an entire television show devoted to advising people to "deny" or "blame it on someone else." Maybe I am taking it too seriously, but I've got to wonder, "is this representative of how members of our society conduct themselves?" What about truth? Is maintaining an image really more important than being a real person, complete with flaws? Since when is it a crime to be human? Are we, as consumers of Hollywood's products, forcing these actors and musicians into a position where they must pretend, deny, lie, and be someone other than who they really are? I used to think being a celebrity might be really fun, with all of the parties and pretty dresses. Now, I'm completely certain that who I am is precisely who I want to be, flaws and all. And I will own up to them, without resorting to the manual on how to survive a scandal.

This is what marriage is like...

2007-04-20T20:51:00.000-05:00

Today, I got my first taste of what being in a marriage is like. Although I've never been what you could call a "loner," I have usually encountered obstacles, talked about them with my close friends or family, and then dealt with the obstacles by myself. Now, I have a partner in all things, even the troubles. It is going to take some getting used to...I've always felt as though my problems were just that, MY PROBLEM. It is very reassuring to know that my husband will stand right beside me and lift me over any hurdles I must jump. When I am weak, he will be the strong one. I can't express how grateful for him I am!

Rather close to home...

2007-04-19T16:58:00.000-05:00

The tragic events that unfolded at Virginia Tech this week have hit very close to home. This university is less than a three-hour drive from my hometown. I know many Hokies fans. It is the type of place, much like where I'm from, where you don't ever imagine anything like this ever occurring.

But it did. And a number of people are pointing fingers and assigning blame. I was one of them. My initial reaction was "why didn't they put the entire campus on lock down?". As we find out more about the events that took place, it seems that everyone in authority acted to the best of their abilities. It seems rather ridiculous to assign guilt in the face of the sheer loss of life that has taken place. Instead of searching for flaws and pouncing upon possible missteps in the actions of the authorities, we should devote a great deal of prayer for comfort to the families of the victims.

Another loss that I find to be distressing is that of school as an institution in which people seek knowledge and find it, without fearing the loss of life. Yesterday, I found myself feeling vulnerable as I walked across my own college campus. I am saddened by the knowledge that I am undoubtedly not alone in this experience. I wonder if this nagging worry will plague me daily when I embark on my career as a teacher. I wonder how the teachers and students at Virginia Tech will ever be able to walk through the doors of their beloved institution again without experiencing the horror anew. We should pray for them, too.

It would seem that this is a time when troubles and sadness are plentiful, answers are few, and comfort is being sought by many. My prayer is that those seeking answers and comfort turn to God, for He alone can bring solace to the grieving.

Take a look!

2007-04-18T19:45:00.000-05:00

I created a photostory of some of our wedding photos. Please feel free to check it out.

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The Last Time We are Parted

2007-04-16T08:01:00.000-05:00

I put my husband on a plane to return to Florida early this morning. It was even harder to watch him walk through airport security than it was for me to actually be the one to leave. We didn't shed any tears at the airport this time...we had already done so hours before when we woke up and realized that it was our last morning together for a while. We are comforted, though, by the knowledge that this will be our last separation ever. The next time we see one another, we will not have to part!

This weekend that we spent together was amazing. We laughed until we cried. We stared into each other's eyes. We held hands everywhere we went. Never has a girl ever felt so cherished. I get to be with this man for the rest of my life! We are going to start a family together! Sometimes I still have to pinch myself to be convinced that I really have been this blessed. If I ever manage to show my husband how much he means to me, I will feel my job is complete. As it is, words are inadequate and there is no gesture or act that can convey the depths of my emotions for him. All I can do is remind him daily that I thank God for him and consider myself especially blessed.

What a beautiful day!

2007-04-12T07:34:00.000-05:00

Today is the first day in quite a while that I didn't have to wake up by any certain time. As I went to bed last night, though, I knew that I wouldn't be able to stay asleep very long because of my excitement for today to begin. Sure enough, I woke up at the very time that my alarm normally goes off. I rolled over and heard birds chattering and the sun was shining brightly through my window. I thought to myself, "Good! The sun ought to shine extra brightly today." In a few hours, my smile is going to shine brightly, too. I will be grinning from ear to ear with joy overflowing from being reunited with my husband! What a beautiful day this is!

No Roadblocks Ahead!

2007-04-11T20:19:00.000-05:00

All of the stressful roadblocks have been removed from my path to wholehearted enjoyment of my husband’s visit this weekend. Between my frantic, ceaseless (almost) work for the week on school assignments and the wonderful news I received today from one of my professors extending a deadline for a revision of our research papers, I feel lighthearted and free to fling myself into enjoying my time with Matt with wild abandon! It has been far too long since I last saw him, and my heartbeat is rapidly accelerating even now as I look forward to tomorrow evening. Obviously, the Lord heard my prayers this morning as I pleaded for the ability to accomplish all of the necessary tasks before me today and elected to inspire my professor to extend our revision deadline. Thank you, God, for allowing me to be able to spend this last day before my husband’s arrival engaged in wonderful anticipatory daydreams!

God's Work of Art

2007-04-08T17:30:00.000-05:00

I went to church today and the message was all about how God takes us in our brokenness and makes us into a masterpiece, and how that was made possible through the broken body of Jesus.

I had never thought of myself as particularly broken, but I suppose in many ways I am. What the sermon really caused me to think about was my grandmother and the way that Alzheimer's disease broke her body and mind. It's only natural that I would have cause to remember my grandma on Easter Sunday, because absolutely every memory of Easter involves her in some way. In fact, she was the very first person to tell me about Jesus and what Easter signifies. This is the first year without her, and I didn't expect it to be so hard...

Back to the theme of brokenness...as my grandmother was broken, God worked through her to open my eyes to His love for me. This Easter was the first year that I truly could say that out of brokenness, God has created a masterpiece in me. And I know that my grandmother is smiling down at His handiwork right this minute.

God's Gift

2007-04-07T22:38:00.001-05:00

I would like to think that I take the time on a daily basis to reflect and express thanks to the Lord for His wonderful gift of eternal life to all of His children. Too often, though, I hurry through my day and neglect to consider His generosity and sacrifice.

Easter is a time when most of us pause and actually do consider the death and resurrection of Jesus for the salvation of us all, or at least I hope so. It is my prayer that children and adults alike are able to see beyond the spring blossoms and pictures of bunnies and colored eggs to the love that is the truest and most beautiful ornament to have ever decorated this earth.

My soul rejoices as I think upon the absolute faithfulness of God to have sent His son Jesus as a perfect sacrifice to atone for all the sins of mankind forever, creating a way for all of us undeserving sinners to be reconciled and able to live in His presence for all of eternity! Oh the love He has for each of us! My prayer this day is that each and every person who reads this takes a moment to think about how much he or she is loved by God. And if you don't know what God has done in preparation to welcome you into His presence, feel free to ask me to share with you that which I know about how blessed it is to be a child of God, made pure through the blood of Jesus Christ.

One month ago...

2007-04-05T18:49:00.000-05:00

...I married the man for whom God created me. I am stunned to realize that it has been a month since we joined our lives before our Father and a small number of our loved ones, and nearly that long since we were last together. Waking up and realizing that was somewhat bitter-sweet for me. Intensely sweet because my amazement that I am married to such a wonderful man is still strong and fresh. A little bitter because we are separated by so much physical distance...

Today actually ended up being a really great day. I worked for a few hours this morning before heading to the dentist. (Ok, so that's not the great part.) After the dentist, I headed up to the adult day care center where I volunteer on Thursdays. I was anxious to get there because I wasn't able to go last week under the crushing weight of my schoolwork.

Once I was there, I was pleased to see many familiar faces and a couple of new ones. My fellow with cerebral palsy was there. I spent most of my time with him today. We played our game of him throwing the tennis ball and me chasing after it. His joy lit up my day! And, he seemed to have improved a little in his ability to throw in my general direction, and I even managed to actually catch the ball a couple of times! Later, I discovered his interest in taking piles of children's puzzles and restacking them. He took great satisfaction in moving each puzzle from one pile to another. We did this for an hour or so, and were still immersed in our activity when his family came to collect him. To my delight, he waved at me when I told him goodbye, which I'm told is a rarity!

To top off my great day, I decided to go to my husband's website as I do on a nearly daily basis and found that he had posted the first set of photos from our wedding day! I had no idea that he had done that...it was a very sweet surprise! It makes me impossibly even more thrilled that I married him one month ago.

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Just what I need...

2007-04-04T13:43:00.000-05:00

I haven’t called Em yet, but I am fervently hoping she isn’t busy tonight. I NEED BEER NIGHT! I have been really good. I turned in my methodology section of my research paper today. Granted, not all of my work is complete, but with all the stuff floating around in my head, my brain can use a few hours of vacation. A couple of hours off from schoolwork. A brief time to not worry about how all of the pieces will come together. A solid block of time to hear all about the goings-on in someone else’s life, nothing about my own….I want to play photo hunt vacantly while sipping on beer my husband would balk at drinking. (Yeah, he’s a beer snob!) I can’t wait to munch on soakies! I don’t, however, intend to indulge my recently abandoned nicotine addiction. (On that matter, I intend to remain resolute.) But as far as rewards go, I think a night with a good girlfriend, drinking our fifty-cent beers as is our Wednesday night tradition, is just what I need.

ANYTHING for my husband!

2007-04-02T21:41:00.000-05:00

Have I mentioned that I am the LUCKIEST GIRL IN THE WORLD?! You may think that I am merely absorbed in the "honeymoon phase" of my marriage, to which I would disagree on the grounds that most honeymooners at least have the privilege of living with their new spouse, but I think that my marriage is the stuff of which dreams are made. I've always considered myself to be a kinda nice girl, but for my husband, I am willing to go the extra mile, if it makes his day better. And he has demonstrated that same devotion to me, over and over and over again.

Thank God for my wonderful partner for life! Please Lord, help us continue to put one another's needs above our own.

Goodbye, beer night....

2007-04-01T10:47:00.000-05:00

I am going to have to be very self-disciplined in the coming weeks. If I let things pile up like I did just a short time ago, I will be risking my mental health. I resolve to be proactive and not reactive. I resolve to get things done before I reward myself for doing them...sometimes I reverse the order, 'cause I figure it doesn't hurt anything really. But, there will be none of that! Beer night is only for girls who have done their methodology section of their research problem, began work on the macroeconomics project, completed their intervention notebooks, posted their concept maps online, and finalized all of the arrangements for their receptions. Pray for me that I can overcome my natural tendency to do those things I enjoy first.

Retail Therapy

2007-03-31T22:08:00.000-05:00

Knowing that in a few weeks I will be joining my husband in Florida for the summer, I elected to do a little shopping this afternoon with my mom. We were specifically looking for dresses to wear to my reception on May 5th. I must have tried on nearly thirty dresses. My hair was utterly destroyed. I stepped on a pin that was camouflaged in the fitting room carpet. I re-injured my old lady hip (don't ask why someone who is in her mid-twenties has bursitis...it has to do with pointy bones) by bumping into the door of the JC Penney's dressing room (which, I might add, SUCKS since their remodel...They used to have so many fitting rooms, and they got rid of a lot of them). I was thirsty, hungry, and tired. I had given up trying to decide if I had gone up or down a size (because the only thing unstable about me is my weight!) and just took three sizes of each dress into the miniature fitting room. Once inside, I quickly determined that the hook that was intended to be used to hang the clothes upon was placed in such a location that, once I hung the dresses there, I was unable to close the door. So I shimmied in and out of dresses with the door half-open. Then, I found the right dress! It is beautiful, and I can't wait to wear it! I LOVE SHOPPING!

Public Apology

2007-03-30T22:08:00.000-05:00

So last week, my husband thoughtfully offered to help me with addressing our thank-you cards. I turned him down promptly, stating tactlessly that he had "terrible" handwriting....After having botched some aspect of writing and addressing nearly all of those thank-you cards, I am more than willing to retract my earlier words. Publicly. I'm sorry, baby. For the next round of cards, your assistance will be eagerly anticipated.

Any takers? I can bake seriously good cookies...

2007-03-29T19:28:00.000-05:00

Does anyone own a private jet? Because I want to be your friend. I'll do your laundry or bake you cookies if you will just give my husband a lift to Tennessee so that I won't have to wait another day to see him...

I have to say I'm suffering from some serious Matt-withdrawal symptoms right about now. Losing sleep...well that may result partly from staying up writing papers until all hours of the night...Ok, bad example. Hmmmm, well I guess I just MISS him. Not actually suffering from physical ailments or anything...Just a little ache in the heart that he isn't right here with me.

The good news is, he and I are both more than capable of waiting the next two weeks until his visit. The bad news is, that is still two weeks away. *MELODRAMATIC SIGH*

I am stunned to think that by the time he visits, we will have been married over a month, and have only been physically together for four days of that time! At this rate, our newlywed phase could stretch well beyond the standard year or so....I actually don't think it will ever fade.

Decisions, decisions

2007-03-28T18:47:00.000-05:00

I am going to go to fifty-cent beer night tonight...I think...I am so feeling the urge to blow off a little steam now that I’ve turned my paper in. You know, reward myself. On the other hand, I probably should catch some sleep, or maybe be a little proactive on next week’s schoolwork so that I don’t get caught up in a time crunch again. Decisions, decisions...I know what Matt is going to advise me to do. I should probably listen to him. He is such a good influence on me. Left to my own devices, I tend to be somewhat hedonistic. I think I’ll skip beer night for one more week. I kind of like the idea of being good. Plus, I completely wiped out my I-can-go-without-a-lot-of-sleep energy reserves a couple of nights ago.

Really, I've got it pretty good....

2007-03-26T21:58:00.000-05:00

I seem to have recovered from my earlier meltdown. Thank God! Now I am reflecting about how easy it is to get so absorbed in my own little crisis that I lose sight of the fact that there are others who are facing much larger hurdles right now than I've even thought about. My paper, although it is important to me, is not of life-changing magnitude. If it gets done (and it will because I am the QUEEN of pulling out of a skid before the crash) or not really won't matter too much in the long run. I have so much for which I am grateful, and I feel very small right now to have treated the result of my procrastination as if it were a monumental crisis. There are people all around us who have legitimate crises. Instead of praying for my paper to write itself, I intend to pray for those individuals. Please forgive me for being so self-absorbed. Really, I've got it pretty good.

Can I take a moment to rant?

2007-03-26T15:48:00.000-05:00

Let me preface this by saying that I adore my husband and couldn't be happier with him. Having said that, I'm gonna take a minute to complain. Not about him, of course.

What is it about college professors that inspires them to ALL have big projects, papers, and tests all at the same time? Is it some sort of loyalty test, to see which course I elect to devote the most attention to? I am dying under a mountain of peer-reviewed articles about maternal stress and learning disabilities, and the sad thing is: I PICKED MY OWN TOPIC! Yep, I did this to MYSELF. Dana, pick a research topic....oh, would you like to write about something really really difficult to grasp, much less paraphrase? Ah, yes, you have chosen wisely....this paper will make you want to curl into a ball and rock yourself while muttering incoherently about attachment behaviors in infants....Well Done! Oh, and by the way, you have a test almost every single week from now until the end of school, so forget about writing any of those thank-you cards or even sending out reception invitations. You simply are going to have to send those via email......Yeah, because you have almost officially given up on relying upon REAL mail. Who knows where things that you MAIL actually GO? Not that the blame lies with the USPS...but I have to be frustrated at someone besides my procrastinating self.....*sigh*

I am finished complaining. I must return back to the task of compiling vast amounts research into a measly ten pages. Then, perhaps I will study for my test tomorrow. Or write thank-you cards. Or go to sleep.

For what it is worth, I'm sorry to anyone who read this thinking it might have any entertainment value whatsoever. Today, this blog is my whipping post, since I'm not a sadomasochist, although my self-inflicted research paper topic choice would indicate to the contrary.

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2007-03-25T17:01:00.000-05:00

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